Useless Me

My college has a blood donation campaign (NBDC), I was dragged by Jennie to become her assistant. PA Assistant, the same post in the last BDC. Aih... So, it was in the week 6 of my current semester. The week before was public holiday, Deeparaya. And I wasn't really working hard previously. I skipped all the lectures on the week. Well, almost all. At least i attended Electronics' lecture, mm only 2 hours I think. ^^;; Well, the campaign was okie, but then was lacking a lot of sleep, because I do stuffs last minute, which is NOT a very good habit and it killed me EVERYTIME, and yet I still don't change. Summore, had some arguement with my dear and made me cried damn lot. Never cried so much. I cried two day in a row, and really really a LOT!! Neways, things' fine now. I hope. And throughout the whole semester, I didn't do my tutorials, didn't revise, didn't do whatever is need to do by a student. I used to be a lot luckier, because all the test I won't afraid although I didn't really study. This time, test came. I just done two test. And I did badly. BADLY. I was... blank... BLANK! I was dissappointed at myself. Disappointed. Why? Why can't I do well? Why things turned out this way? I guess too much Internet-ing and lack of SELF-CONTROL!!! Useless me... I hate it when I can't control myself! But then it still happens. Ahh.. just wanna release my stress. Have a big FLU today and had some health prob previously... hope things turn out better soon. And, I guess I'm getting on track with my streamyx down. Started doing tutorials liao. Hehe~ ^^ Yet, I still feel myself getting more and more stupid. Noticing all my coursemates are advancing and I'm lagging all the way behind, I felt damn useless. Useless me. Ahh well, one stupid post. Anything you wanna scold please write in comment. Thanks. All scoldings are accepted with open heart.

Headache

Suddenly I felt headache today. It comes so slowly that I didn't even notice it coming. It has been quite some day. A lot of thinking went through my mind. I started acting weird, in front of everybody especially my dear. Dear, I'm sorry. There has been too much things happening recently. Sometimes I just feel like being with you alone all time, without caring any other thing *tune of You and Me by Lifehouse playing*. Thanks for being a great support to me.

Maybe there is too much online session, mosquitoes bites, non-regular sleep pattern, sleeping in class, tutorials, undone and tough assignment because no guidance, suckish lecturer, parental disapproval, financial problems, etc... AH.. damn.. I'm only 19, why do I have to suffer from all this? (This is the famous quote from Jennie)

Sometimes I just feel like the world is goning to end soon. Accidents are getting more and more, stuffs are getting more and more expensive, my wallets feels more and more empty, natural disaster are getting more and mroe frequent (although I don't really read the news), newspaper reading session are getting lesser and lesser, interest are getting blurer and blurer, stuffs are getting messier, things are getting harder...

And something which I thought it is going to happen only in the drama has been told to me that it has happened real life, and to some of my closest friends. Yeah, I know it is naive to think that things that are happening in drama aren't going to happen in real life as drama is the reflection of the real life.

House burgary, teenage pregnancy, severe family problems backed with a gambler as a father of the family, relationship problems with a 6 years and a 1 month, juggling between preferences and requests, communication problems, and felt like things are going against my will.

Ahh, they say humans have "Sam sui look wong" (3 years of bad luck and 6 years of prosperity). I kinda have a feeling this year is one of my 'sam sui'. But not really 'sui' la... Someone found me, and we are together for half a year already, and I'm glad it happened.

Ah well, I guess things are gonna get better. Before I wrote this, I had a headache, face muscle cramp and feel damn tensed. I guessed thats because I have been wanting to write a post but I didn't really write one.

Ahh.. better get back to work.. Let me see, what I need to do... NBCD, Poster, Flash, Presentation, Tutorials...

P/S: Dear, I really want to cuddle with you badly...

Grandpa Birthday Dinner

Today I went for my grandpa's birthday's dinner. Went over to this restaurant in Subang Village near the Subang Airport. Sunny Seafood Restaurant. Aww.. the place damn sux ler~ All the food tasted sooo bad. Fish and meat aare so raw that it couldn't be eaten. *_* SUX!! Here is the list of dishes ordered: Steamed Chicken Steamed Fish Streamed Pork Ribs Hakka-Fried Pork Tofu SharkFin Petai (Smelly beans) with minced meat, without chillis Baku Vege, without chillis Longevity Noodles All these dishes are even worse than home cooked. The steamed chicken was ok, the fish was too raw and tasted fishy, and the pork rib was too raw too. Hakka-Fried Pork was ok, and the Tofu Sharkfin was.. eww.. its like all mixed up together. The petai and the baku vege should be cooked with sambal as those are Malay dishes, without sambal it tasted really badly. I know it is not going to taste good so I didn't even touch those dishes. Rumours says those dishes are cooked without sambal is because of my uncle. The only thing I like is just the longevity noodles. This restaurant really sux ler~ We waited for sooo long then only the dishes arrives, and the food tasted sooo badly. I wonder who ordered these dishes.. all these are normal dishes where it can be cooked at home. If it is a birthday dinner, can't we order more special things? I have done my say. Thank you.

About love - again

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is most painful is to love someone and never finding the courage to let the person know how you feel. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be grateful for that gift. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance - and you find out you still care for that person. A sad thing about life is when you meet someone that means a lot to you, only to find out in the end, that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go. When one door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch, and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back, don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. There are things you love to hear but you would never hear it from the person from whom you would like to hear it, but don't be deaf to hear it from the person who says it with his heart. Never say goodbye when you still want to try , never give up when you still feel you can take it, never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go. Love comes to those who still hope, even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe , even though they've been betrayed, need to love those who still love even though they've been hurt before.

Diary 26-08-2005

Was damn tired for very long. Slept very late and woke up very early most of the times. Slept in class always. Maybe used to it, yesterday I slept quite a lot. Took a 3 hour nap and slept at 1.30am yesterday. Felt good when woke up in the morning. Haven't been feeling this fresh for a long time; and I yet I had a hard time getting off the bed. It is like heaven~! Well, if someone was on the bed with me, it would really be heaven! Although was fresh in the morning, I was still late for class. There was a test going on too! I got there half an hour late, and I managed to finish the questions before time. It's the subjet I'm best in, Introduction to OOP (the JAVA programming). Haha... Then Electronics lecture. The lecturer which is not so liked caused he doesn't really handle his whatever-is-it well. Well, if your have read my previous post, he is the one who told us how dinosaur extinct. Check back June 2005 archive. OK. We had a electronics test last tuesday, and that test has made me almost gone mad! Well, mostly is because I didn't know how to solve the questions. Some very important part of the paper, AC analysis of a BJT and a FET transistor. I stared at the tutorials for so long then only I got to know how it worked. And I am yet to know how they really worked. About today, he gave us back the test paper for us to mark. My course rep was like, "WHAT? Ask us to mark?" And the complaints continues. Actually I don't think he is that bad. It's just that the way he handle stuffs are... different. Well, he did made me knew how lecturer give marks on our exam papers today. So, I guess there is a praise from me. Not to give too much negative thinkings. It does affect studies. Lunch hour today was nice. It rained. The canteen was a bit dark. I suggested a candle light lunch. Ooo... well, we didn't really lid candle. We just sat there eat out lunch enjoying the cool breeze, and some water drizzle into our food. JiaYin has a nice game on her 7610, its a mosquitoe whacking game, which it uses your camera view as background, and place mosquitoes onto the virtual map, and requires you to move your phone like a gun, to shoot the mosquitoe. So, its like you'll have to move your camera up down left right to find them, and kill them. What a game. Really have to praise the game maker. Circuit & Signal tutorial class. Drizzling outside. It will feel so nice to sleep. Yawnz... OK, concentrate on tutorial. I'm damn left out in this subject also. Now only got to know how to solve the phasor circuit properly. Sad. Well, cheerz cause know how to solved already. ^^ Something happened. TWH, a guy we don't really like in out course, he took off his shirt in class! I was like WTF. I didn't really noticed that when he did that. But then yeoh suddenlly told me that I'm lost. I was wandering what have I lost. When I looked behind I was really like... WTF OMG GTH. The reason I was lost cause I joked I wanted to strip when we was in canteen after our meal for the air was so breezy. Ewww... get lost la you TWH~ Then, went over to Mid Valley to watch All About My Dog, a jap movie all about my dogs. Its damn nice, and damn sad. I cried a lot in the movie. All dog owners really should watch this... Ahh.. ok, I'm sleepy already. Talk to you next time k? Bloggie...

Yes, dear

It would appear that men now have a good excuse for what women call "selective" deafness. You see, according to the recent scientific research, men have little control over their lack of listening powers when it comes to female voice, simply because the male brain finds it difficult to process "complex female tones". adapted from StarTwo 22 August 2005, written by mary schneider in but then again

Some wonderful words

Read Carefully and Understand the Meanings: Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? If love isn't a game, why are there so many players? Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push! Actions speak louder than words. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff. Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have. Some people make the world special by just being in it. Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there. True friendship never ends. Friends are forever. Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there. Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart. If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was. A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug>until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come tru. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u. To realize The value of a sister Ask someone Who doesn't have one. To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple. To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate. To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam. To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born. To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to A premature baby. To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper. To realize The value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet. To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane. To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident... To realize T! he value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special. To realize the value of a friend: Lose one. The origin of this letter is unknown, But it brings good luck to everyone who passes it on. Do not keep this letter. Forward! it to friends to whom you wish good luck Peace love and prosperity to all

Hazie

Hie guyz. There has been a long time since I have posted something here, something personal, something which I wrote myself. Well, I have been busy. Busy with dating, matchmaking, listening songs, last-minute-jobs, and wasting time.

15 July 2005 9.57 a.m., I’m on bus on the way to college. Felt bored. I took out my mp3 player. Plug on and played. The left side of the earphone spoilt. WTF. Playing “一秒感动 - 王菀之”. When I looked up and see through the bus window, I couldn’t really see the peak of KLCC clearly, because it is covered with white clouds. White clouds? What happened to KL? I took another look; it was grayish haze, canopying KL. Is KL sick? Well, I guess it isn’t just KL who is sick. I’m sick too. Love sick, anti-college sick, sleep sick, blog sick… Last week I got sick. I was too tired and I slept late. Caught a sore throat, a huge fever, back brain migraine, and left arm ligament ache. Now I’m still infested with flu and cough. My nose is in worse condition. All inner skin was damaged by the body heat, and I keep peeling off the dead skin… Is that why I’m still sick? My acne is worse. It’s like my whole forehead is covered with dark spots here and there. How can such a handsome guy be infested with such dark spots on his face? What a shame. Used whitening scrub. Patiently waiting for result.

The weather has been bad. Haze has been covering KL. The stupid Indons burn forest at Sumatera. They burn because they want to plant stuffs for Hari Raya and Chinese New Year. If they burn now, the ashes will be their fertilizer and it will be just in time to harvest the items when its celebration time. They are so selfish. The haze has actually struck us for many years; it is just that it was not as serious as this time. I still remember there was once; I think should be in 1997, when I was in primary 5, the weather was damn bad too. We have to like, wear only a special mask namely N95 if I’m not mistaken. It was so scary. The API reached 500++ back then. At least it didn’t reach that bad this time. Just that feeling you are in Genting Highland surrounded by smoky-burnt-wood haze doesn’t feel good. Taking all the short breaths, activity got limited, and getting yourself in a supposingly a heavenly hazy surrounding but with foul smell is just so off. Thank god there is masks, and rain, and wind. Now the haze has been blown away. But I kind of feel sad for the people. Why do we have to suffer what other people have done? It is so unfair.

What 'Love' is all about..

I want to share this to all those who have loved and been hurt, those who haven't loved at all and those who are just about to discover the beauty of this dynamic emotion. When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love,it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if his or her happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unlessyou give it a try. You'll never truly love a person you love unless you RISK FOR LOVE. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test you and to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure nor won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we arealways learning, relearning, discovering, rediscovering, and growing. The greatest irony of love is LETTING GO WHEN YOU WANT TO HOLD ON and HOLDING ON WHEN YOU NEED TO LET GO. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejections; to hope is to risk failure; to reach for another is to risk involvement; to expose your feelings is to expose your true self; to love is to risk not to be loved in return. Butisn't it living is to risk of dying? Risk must be taken because THE GREATEST HAZARD IN LIFE IS RISKING NOTHING! How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It CAN STAB THE HEART but it also CAN CARVEWONDERFUL IMAGES INTO THE SOUL THAT LAST FOR A LIFETIME! Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in theend. Loving people means giving them the freedom that they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that these were the things which helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. When you give your heart to someone, you're also giving him or her the power to tear and break your heart into pieces. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is LOVE. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love because every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured that's why it is called falling in love...

Why we love someone

All life represents a risk, and the more lovingly we live our lives the more risks we take.....

You love someone with or without them you just continue to love them
No one can replace them forever
You love someone for who they are
You love someone without asking for anything in return
You love them not because you want to be with them but because you can't live without them
Your love to them will never change even when they are not with you
You always wish to see them happy
You love them forever even when you don't have them you still love them and that never goes less.

You are an angel and I but a mere mortal.
We are worlds apart. I must love you from a distance.
When it rains, look to the sky and think of the drops of water as tears from angels.

If I ever saw an angel, it was in your eyes.
The angel of love will fill your heart and you will have all you seek in time to come.
Twinkling stars, too many to count, like angels in heaven.

Love is the salutation of the angel to the stars.

How to eat Kim Gary's / Mong Kok's bread

Many find the big breads there very hard to eat. One of my best friend show me a way. Look at these pictures. Share this with others.

Sad day

Suddenly felt sad today. Maths lecture don't understand. T.T slept for 1 and a half hour after dinner. syok. hehe

What a day...

Been through a somewhat strange and interesting day. In the morning, i ate breakfast, fry egg and hotdog. Damn nice. Then, I attended "Circuit & Signal" 1 hour lecture, I felt asleep for the 1st half an hour. BREAK RECORD! Haven't been sleeping for so long. Then at lunch time, I ate a plate of mixed rice, then I ate a plate of Char Kuey Teow, at the college canteen. Well, since its a canteen, the food is just edible. Not really nice. I think it's maybe I ate good breakfast. Haha... Then, "Engineering Mathematics 3" 2 hours lecture, and again, I slept for 1st half hour. I think its because recently have been sleeping late (2am++) and waking up early (7am++). Aiks, need to sleep early tonight liao. Then, when I'm getting on bus, I met one of my old female friend. Since we are going back to the same train station, we go together. After arrived in Sogo (we'll have to change to KTM to go back home), she said she want to spend me for a meal. Well, we decided to have McDonalds, then we went walk walk in Sogo. She said that is the 1st time she's in Sogo after 2 week passing by the area. Aiks... So, I brought her around and we end up in the arcade. We played till 7 something, after we have finish our tokens, we went back. Surprisingly she asked me, how to use the ticket vending machine, after like 2 weeks traveling to college by train. Aiks... After that when we reach Kepong, she offered to fetch me home (her parents drive la). Unluckily, we encountered SUPER TRAFFIC JAM in Kepong Baru. 1 single lane can turn into 3 lanes, and the 3rd lane is occupying the opposite lane. What the... What a day... HAHA...

50 Romantic things to do to your soulmate

50 Romantic things to do to your Boy/Girl Friend

 

 

1. Watch the sunset together.

2. Whisper  to each other.

3. Cook     for each other.

4. Walk   in the rain.

5. Hold hands

6. Buy gifts for each other.

7. Roses.

8. Find out their favorite cologne/perfume and wear it every time you're together.

9. Go for a long walk down the beach at midnight.

10. Write poetry for each other.

11. Hugs are the universal medicine.

12. Say only when you mean it and make sure they know you mean it.

13. Give random gifts of flowers/candy/poetry etc.

14. Tell her that she's the only girl you ever want. Don't lie!

15. Spend every second possible together.

16. Look into each other's eyes.

17. Very lightly push up her chin, look into her eyes, tell her you love her, and kiss her lightly. 
 

18. When in public, only flirt with each other.

19. Put love notes in their pockets when they aren't looking.

20. Buy her a ring.

21. Sing to each other.

22. Always hold her around her hips/sides.

23. Take her to dinner and do the dinner for two deal.

24. Spaghetti? (Ever see Lady and the Tramp?)

25. Hold her hand, stare into her eyes, kiss her hand and then put it over your heart.

26. Dance together.  

27. I love the way a girl looks right after she's fallen asleep with her head in my lap.

28. Do cute things like write I love you in a note so that they have to look in a mirror to read it.

29. Make excuses to call   them every 5 minutes

30. Even if you are really busy doing something, go out of your way to call  and say I love you.

31. Call from your vacation spot to tell them you were thinking about them.

32. Remember your dreams and tell her about them.

34. Tell each other your most sacred secrets/fears.

35. Be Prince Charming to her parents.

36. Brush her hair out of her face for her.

37. Hang out with his/her friends.

38. Go to church/pray/worship together.

39. Take her to see a romantic movie and remember the parts she liked.

40. Learn from each other and don't make the same mistake twice.

41. Describe the joy you feel just to be with him/her.

42. Make sacrifices for each other.

43. Really love each other, or don't stay together.

44. Let there never be a second during any given day that you aren't thinking about them, and make sure they know it.

45. Love yourself before you love anyone else.

46. Learn to say sweet things in foreign languages.

47. Dedicate songs to them on the radio.

48. Fall asleep on the phone with each other.

49. Stand up for them when someone talks trash.

50. Never forget the kiss goodnight and always remember to say, "Sweet dreams."

Found a GREAT place of sharing things ~NEW~

Hey, I found some place which shares things to us. Its actually encouragements sharings. So, if you finds that you are depressed or you need encouragements, come here. This is my pet sister's blog. Be there if you need support!

Two men, both seriously ill, occupied the same hospital room.

 

One man was allowed to sit up in his bed for an hour each afternoon to help drain the fluid from his lungs. His bed was next to the room's only window.

 

The other man had to spend all his time flat on his back.
 

The men talked for hours on end.
 

They spoke of their wives and families, their homes, their jobs, their involvement in the military service, where they had been on vacation.

 

Every afternoon when the man in the bed by the window could sit up, he would pass the time by describing to his roommate all the things he could see outside the window. The man in the other bed began to live for those one-hour periods where his world would be broadened and enlivened by all the activity and color of the world outside.

 

The window overlooked a park with a lovely lake. Ducks and swans played on the water while children sailed their model boats.

 

Young lovers walked arm in arm amidst flowers of every color and a fine view of the city skyline could be seen in the distance. As the man by the window described all this in exquisite detail, the man on the other side of the room would close his eyes and imagine the picturesque scene.
 

One warm afternoon the man by the window described a parade
passing by.
                

Although the other man couldn't hear the band - he could see it. In his mind's eye as the gentleman by the window portrayed it with descriptive words.

 

Days and weeks passed.

 

One morning, the day nurse arrived to bring water for their baths only to find the lifeless body of the man by the window, who had
died peacefully in his sleep. She was saddened and called the hospital attendants to take the body away.

 

As soon as it seemed appropriate, the other man asked if he could be moved next to the window. The nurse was happy to make the switch, and after making sure he was comfortable, she left him alone.
               

Slowly, painfully, he propped himself up on one elbow to take his first look at the real world outside. He strained to slowly turn to look out the window beside the bed..

 

It faced a blank wall. The man asked the nurse what could have compelled his deceased roommate who had described such wonderful things outside this window.

 

The nurse responded that the man was blind and could not even see the wall. She said, "Perhaps he just wanted to encourage
you."
 

Epilogue:
 

"There is tremendous happiness in making others happy, despite our own situations"

 

"Shared grief is half the sorrow, but happiness when shared, is doubled"
 

"If you want to feel rich, just count all the things you have that money can't buy"
 

"Today is a gift, that's why it is called the present."

The origin of this letter is unknown, but it brings good luck to everyone who passes it on.

 

Do not keep this letter..
 

Just forward it to your friends to whom you wish good luck.

 

You will see that something good happens to you four days from today.

Your Birthdate: September 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit. You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual. Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male

Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve

What Gender Is Your Brain?

Masks, Dramas, Human Feelings

Here's a comment written to my pet brother's blog. Please visit here to see the original post.

Dear didi, Everyone has their own secrets which they do not want to reveal to everyone in the world. Its like playing a card game, where you do not reveal all your card/show hand at once u duel with your opponent. I have some so-called dark side I haven't told you, which I would like to share with you soon, when time comes. As you see in some movies, people hid their feelings under a happy face, because some of them are really desperately needed to be hidden. For example, what will you do if you found out that your best friends is not like what you see them, and is totally 180 degrees different when you are not with them? "Life is but a masquerade, One which we are forced to play, We don our mask and play our parts, Unable to say what's in our hearts. The stage is set as the curtain rises, And so begins another day, The people come onstage with perfect faces, Though tormented by the parts they play. So many things still unsaid, Silet in these sufferings, Yet this part has to be played, Forever bound by puppet strings Traped in a mental cage, In this silence suffocating, Crying behind the stage, Behind this mask slowly dying. Bound by chains unseen, Kept in invisible captivity, Waiting for the changing of scenes, Waiting to be free..." I got this poem from a friend, he wrote it when he was feeling sad. Althought I don't really understands what he would like to portray, the basic meaning is there. Life is like a stage drama. I have some suggestion on what you should do. First, you should no be stressed out by this so-called problems. It's happenning every second. Even you have something you do not want to tell other people right? Secondly, if you really want to help them to have the feeling of the happy colour without the mask, you really need to get close to him or her, even if you do, he/she might not have tell you everything. Convince him/her that you'll understand and really help them to try solve the problems. Finally, really give true smiles to everyone and hugs to those whom you care. Althought it might not be significant, at least it will somehow make their day.

Remember, do smile always, make someone's day better, you will feel better. ^.^

Why dinasour extinct

You must wonder why I suddenly come up with this. Actually, my lecturer told me this. Althought we must have heard they extinct because comet dropped on earth. Yes. That's the main cause. But wat happen after the comet crash is what should be paid attention. Scientists discovered large crate (holes left by comet) in the sea, this proves that the comet really dropped on earth. In many writings, they says earth has been through Ice Age. It's true. Now, let me explain. Comet crashed on earth at high speed and extream heat, reaching 5000˚c, which is far hotter than earth's highest melting point object, diamond, which is merely 3500˚c. So, basically all object melted when the comet crashed. The vaporation of the melted object in form of dusts and carbons covered the whole atmosphere, thus sunlight could not warm the earth. And then, the Ice Age begins. So, as the explanation goes, do you think dinasours are able to survive in 5000˚c? If they happen to be at the other side of the world, could they survive at a temperature way below 0˚c? What do they at to survive when plants even died? So, they extinct. Then, another age begins. Wow, looks like something in "The Day After Tomorrow". ^.^

State 4 of College - State Starts

Urghh.. After 6 weeks of unplanned holidays ended, I found myself having a hardcore timetable for my 4th semester in college. Ahhhh!! Okay, on the 1st day, still okie ler... First class, Circuits & Signals's practical class. Oh Shit. How can we have practical on the first day? Well, we had. The teacher haven't even introduce himself, he gave us the lab manual and ask us to do the experiment already. Well, luckily I paid attention 300+ days ago, cause that is the continuation of the subject I learnt - "Basic Electronics". So, plugging here soldering there, we managed to do the experiment. Well, as it's on the first day, all equiptments we did not bring. So, we had to borrow from school. Ahh well, it's ok thou. Next time must remember to bring the DMM (Digital Multi-Meter). Then, lunch time ^.^ I had my usual mixed rice, and damn the canteen, the mixed rice price got up too. It's RM1.90!! It was 10 cents cheaper! Well, the food aren't that good, and aren't that clean, that's why I'm whining. Then, a must-take subject ordered by the government - "Tamadun Islam dan Asia", literaly means "Islamic and Asian Civilization". So, got to know the teacher, then she was talking about how good Islam is, how was back then, why the people were fighting in Jeruselam of Pakistan (erm. actually, all of them have the same belief, just that the different prophet conducted different message, and people got more selfish). Erm, the teacher told lots of stuff. I hope the information is correct, and I think is good that the government enforce that. Yay... 1st day of 2nd year of 1st semester ended. Felt great~ ^^ Looking forward for tomorrow~ ^^

Blog Competition

<<>> Sad... Sometimes I wonder, is my blog attractive? Keeping a log about one's life is that easy? Writing blog is cool? Oh shit, what am I crapping here? Huuh... Just felt stupid for keeping a blog when no one reads it. Hmm... Playing Now << 手放开 - 李圣杰 >> Huuh... Added some features in my blog, Google search, Google ads, Bravenet Counter, changed layout... Should I spend time create my own template? Haizz... I'll do it sometime, not now. College starting soon. All the honeymoon memories will be kept in mind. Hopefully the missing-someone part will be much enlightening then burdoning.

Dear, you sometimes just made me miss you too much... You are good la.

Blog Blog... Be nice ok? Don't worry. I'll spend time to write to you. ^^

I'm BILL CLINTON! ~ ah.. shut up..

A personality test I took. Hmm.. well, it did describe some of me. Haha.

What Famous Leader Are You? personality tests by similarminds.com

Global Personality Test Results

Stability (37%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness (43%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion (63%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

Take Free Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com

Ooo.. My real birth-month? 0.o

Your True Birth Month Is February

Sharp Ambitious Spendthrift Loves reality Loves freedom Temperamental Low self esteem Honest and loyal Abstract thoughts Daring and stubborn Changing personality Showing anger easily Intelligent and clever Loves aggressiveness Quiet, shy and humble Learns to show emotions Rebellious when restricted Determined to reach goals Superstitious and ludicrous Dislikes unnecessary things Realizing dreams and hopes Too sensitive and easily hurt Loves entertainment and leisure Romantic on the inside not outside Loves making friends but rarely shows it

What's Your True Birth Month? Feeling a bit weird. Haha.

Is cat that responsive, or just stupid?

Here is a link to a very manipulative show, where they found out what cat would do if its stucked. My language is not that good and if you think I'm wrong, please post me a comment. http://files.i611.com/314159265358979/video/funny/StupidCat.wmv

Bus fare got up T.T

Omg, bus fare got up! Seet.. Today my college has its orientation for new student intake, which means my junior, n that made me a senior ^.^ I wore a bit extream today, yet i felt great. Following the routine like i used to stick with, being called up by sis, booming me up wif my mp3 player n my sonic gear tatoo 330, bath, dress n impress self with mirror. After an unusually prepared milo (i usually lazy to prepared), i went off to ktm, then got on bus.

Permata kiara 170, i got on the usually nicely air conditioned bus with radio on-air. Opps. I saw price gone up. The rm1.20 i prepared isn't enough already. T.T It's rm1.50! T.T

T.T Couldn't help being sad. Luckily i prepared extra jz in case. Strange things do happen one shot. The bus i got on stopped half way, where only two passenger were on it. Me n another guy. The driver halt a less conditioned 191 n v got on. Still sad about the 30cent raise. T.T mom, i'm going to ask for more allowance liao. Don't blame me. Blame the bus company.

PS: The bus fare has gone up since 1st of May, if I'm not mistaken, same zone ticket goes up 20 cents, cross 1 zone ticket goes up 30 cents and cross 2 zon ticket goes up 40 cents. Just bring more coins when you take bus. Why the bus fare got up? Damn the petrol raise.

TARC Students please take note

Rumours about TARC's certificates is not accredited by any government body is not true. I have consulted with one of TARC's lecturer. He says tat TARC is considered as IPTA. LAN is the body appointed to accredit IPTS (Private Higher Learing Institution) such as Help, Taylor, etc. So, TARC are same level as UM/UKM/other government higher learning institution. Certs for these institution are accreditted by MOHE (Ministry of Higher Education). Therefore, do not suspect TARC's efficiency.

All the Best and Good Luck to all TARC students!!

Do pass this message around.

Pics with Jien

If you are Malaysian or Singaporean you should know Soo Kui Jien right? During the last day of Malaysian Idol (should be, or the next day), Jien walked around Times Square, and my friend Alex no.2 spotted him. So, he quickly ask Jien to take a picture with him. OMG. I wish I'm there.

Strange Dream about Julienne

I have a pal, Julienne, She has been busy since March of this year, and did not actually have a good chat with her. Strangely enough, I don't know why I dreamt of her. Haven't kept in touch with her for I think about 2 months. I wonder how is she now. I learnt a way to record dream is to put a notepad or recorder around you when you sleep. Once you got up, jot down every details fresh in your memory. Else, the dream will go off. So, if you are interested, you can give it a try. How knows you can save someone from trouble? About the dream, it goes this:

I remembered it was at my ex-school's back door, attending Physical Education classes (Pendidikan Jasmani). Julienne drove in and parked, look for my teacher, or some teacher near by. She was an admin member of the school, I felt it was Pn. Aw. She asked for some permission to do something, and then went off. If I am not mistaken, I was at Form 5 that time, cause I saw my classmates.

Then, at another plot, another time, Julienne asked me to go out, to some accident scene. I didn't go. Then, I don't know how I got on her car, her Kancil was a bit out of shape, as if it has been in accident. She was fetching me and some other people to some place, or some special occasion. I heard about the crash news, I was shocked and ran home. Later, Julienne called, asked me whether I want to go to her mother's friend's birthday party. Then, I woke up.

Strange right? I wonder is there any dream reader out there. If you are reading this, can you please decode the dream and tell me any hint hidden in it in the comment? Thanks a lot. In the end, I was worried about Julienne, I smsed her and told her about this, she replied: "Choi! Choi!". To those who knows chinese should know this right? For those who don't, it is similar to "Touch-wood". So, we replied some smses, she said she was ok, and we told each other to take care.

without teachers, who are we?

Accidentally saw a Teachers Day advertisement on TV. OMG.. damn touching.. the school was at a rural area, where electrical supplies are fuel base.. by the mean time it was raining heavily and the electricity tripped.. the male malay teacher went out the rain n check the electricity box, and found out that no fuel liao.. went and add, and then went to classroom.. meanwhile, the children was wanderin y there's no electricity. the scene was a classroom wif projector n laptop facility. (most of the classrooms are installed wif these facilities nowadays) they were tryin to run sumthing on the pc. after the teacher add fuel, the electricity came alive, and went bek to class wet. d monitor and all student stood n greeted "terima kasih cikgu", n then they show over the projector an image saying "happy teachers day" wif small children.. so sweet... u know wat the ending quote is?

tanpa cikgu, siapalah kami?

yea.. without teachers, who are we?

1st day of home w/o parents bangkok version

Oo.. Parents go holiday~! Great~!! I have the car to myself, can drive anywhere~!! kekeke.. so fun~!! Hmm.. so.. today Joshi was suppose to come at 10am, coz v r on something. I had then actually invited vincent over for lunch. Owell, din want, but i lost a bet, so hv 2 do so.. T.T luckily joshi agreed to pay half, hopefully... so, as i was waiting listenin to classic songs "hw deep is ur love, reunited" (like an old classic man) , i called him. he was still in bed at 9.30am, omg.. i did remind him to sleep early last nite.. c? haiz.. kenot save liao.. dissappointed.. mm.. so.. he arrived at around 12. vincent was a bit obnoxious.. he came n st8 go to my pc and take it as its own.. OMG.. haiz.. another kenot save 1.. sad.. hehe.. vincent n joshi dun mad a.. ^.^ n then ok.. drive to makan~!! go THE CURVE.. Yeah! Upon enterin the curve.. WHOA. Dam BIG. joshi n vincent sed it's like spore style.. i was like.. okaay.. but it's really big n wonderful.. so.. v walked around the food section.. so MANY nice places to eat.. there is a restaurant like western wet market style, where u buy the food and sit down eat, full of western style.. heard fom vince n joshi tat there r quite a lot these restaurants in spore.. oo.. seem like the curve wanna impliment metropolitant style like spore.. mm. good.. ah.. by the way, the restaurant is called Mövenpick Marché Restaurant if i'm not mistaken, jz right beside starbucks. but v din eat in tat restaurant coz i scared expensive, so v went to another restarant, Caffé 1920 (The Curve 1st floor, take the elevator beside TGI Fridays), eat pasta n lasagna ^.^ mm.. quite nice, but the lasagna wasn't well prepared , the cheese was hot but the meat was cold. T.T after i eat half i onli complain.. shit.. they reheat it. n gave me discount and free pastry. ^.^ hehehe... great meal indeed.

These pics r taken by vince w/o my approval... ^^ The pizza Vince eat, "Diacola", RM 14.50 One slice of the pizza My lasagna, Caffé 1920's special made - "Timballo", RM 16.00, and some pastry. The Pepsi vince drink. RM 3.50

then i drive vince bek, stray around in his house, then go home.. after tat, i send joshi to ktm. so.. today's 1st experience..

• 1st time drive to The Curve
• 1st time go The Curve
• 1st time go out with Vincent
• 1st time drive through toll
• 1st time belanja makan more than RM50
• 1st time drive so far
• 1st time fill petrol
• 1st time got so many 1st time happened in one day ^.^

Funny, mom n dad, holiday ~ ^.^

Hee hee.. wat a funny day... Today my parents are away to Bangkok on a "lovey-dovey" holiday. Awell, the funny part is actually the moment when i woke up. Not that they r doin anything funny while i do, but its I woke them up instead of them waking me. My parents did ask me 2 fetch them to KTM station (for those who knows I can't drive, nw I can, for some special reasons). I set my alarm clock, phone alarm actually on 6am call. I actually expected lights on when I 1st open my eye. To my shock, total blackout. Hmm, must b not up yet. So, I went to their room and wake them. Ooo.. Great, still sleeping soundly. They didn't even notice me open the door.. I even hear my dad snoring. Usually they woke up quite easily.. I wonder y... mayb the air conditioning was too comfortable.. mm.. feel like sleeping under the cold blanket nw.. ^_^ So, i said softly at the door, "hey, It's 6 o'clock liao!" Surprisingly both of them woke at the same moment.. oo.. while they was preparing, my dad was smiling all alone.. when was waiting for mom to get ready, v sat in the living room. them my mom came ask him y he smiling all alone.. he sed, this is the 1st time I woke them up.. =.= 1st time? no way.. then i argued, for 19yrs living under ur roof i've never woke u up before? o.0 Well, i fetch them there (KTM la, bukan KLIA) and bid gd bye and smooth sailing.. when i was fetching them there, mom kept reminding me about taking care bout my lil bro n sis.. mmm.. pls la.. holiday enjoy la.. i'll take care of everything.. hopefully.

Restarting Blog

Helo everyone, sorry for being out of coverage for so long. Jz nw my lecturer (can b considered a gd pal) ask me about my long forgotted blog (ah well, is just that i lazy to write only). He told me he din visit it long time. I was touched. I thought no one remembers my blog. Another incident, very interesting event. Ema (The one I sed about the indian marriage thingy, refer feb/march 05) needed help on Visual Basic. At the last minutes, i then only realize One of my blog reader, also a very good pal of mine (alex no.2 [there is another alex at previous post]), r quite good in Visual Basic. So, i redirected them. Whoa.. comes out, alex still rememeber i told story about ema and they r like long lost frenz.. ema kept saying good things about alex no.2 in front of me.. whoa.. so sweet... never thought a blog can make such a big difference.. :sob: touching... OK~!! Determined liao~! 1 week must at least hv 1 post.. dun worry.. things r coming.. coz i'm on holiday nw ma. hopefully i can falsh back.. ^_^

~~Bad timing~~

when i was wring this blog on notepad, suddenly my internet got cut off.. my streamyx down~! damn.. coz i delayed paying the bill.. neways, this is my 2nd month using steamyx.. when i started using it.. i got addicted liao.. ^.^ hopefully it recovers soon in the morning.

Yo, peeps!

OMG. It has been damn long time since I ever have time to sit still and write a blog. Time is evil. It tortures me along with lust, laziness, stupidity, and whatsoever torturing. Damn. Only after I read lpshen’s blog I had mood to write one. How can I be so controlled emotionally? Where has your rationality gone? You DAGGER! What does that means anyway? Nah, doesn’t care, as long as it sounds like motherf**ker. (Well, it should sound like IDIOT, but my idiotic language doesn’t come with any word similar to it.) When was my last blog written? O… it’s the wedding! Damn I missed a lot. I now don’t feel like writing my dairy as blog. It feels so stupid to actually have people, esp strangers reading your diary. What an imbecile. (Oh, never realise there is another word. It was from Garfield the movie, that’s what Garfield called Odie, the imbecile dog.) I had actually captured tonnes of pictures on my candy bar, Nokia 3200 [Well, not tonnes actually, it can’t even store more than 100 pictures.]. I had even actually written something on my mobile phone! Well, lemme see what I’ve written. {I’m on a ‘business trip’ 2 Nilai with my dad. I’m on holiday n it’s after cny, n I’m damn free at house n grounded. No choice but to follow. He woke me up at 8 in d morning n we went on journey at 830. I’ve only slept for 4 hrs. He drove Naza Ria (Kia Carnival) out n it’s auto. He was a manual guy. So, I can’t stand him driving auto. I’d always see the engine meter reach 3.5/4 before dropping down. (naza change gear usually at 2.5/3) Nor wonder he’s complaining d fuel goes like drinking water. As I know, it uses a quad-cam 24 valves engine. Well, accelerating is definitely like drinking water. But if It goes long distant, it’s like riding on a cloud. BREEZY. Getting a Naza was not a bad idea after all, as all of us got to enjoy the umph of the car. Kekeke. Sadly, the car is not us, is the company’s. My dad was about to solve some problem regarding the electricity bill of his house for rent there. The bill was at extremely high price and the rentee did not use that much, and the meter was way lower then the number jotted there. He bumps into the TNB office and told the officer to change the bill. But the officer gave reason stating that the meter reader couldn’t see the reading on the meter. My dad then tells him, “I’m a carpenter, I’ll bring my hammer and my nail and all the tools to fix your house. He is a meter reader, shouldn’t he brings a binocular to read my meter? It is outside the house! Approximation? Does that mean your meter reader is taking the wages without doing his job? If he doesn’t want to do it, dozens of people out there want the job!” The officer went speechless immediately and changes the bill. Wow. What a great dad. He then talks about so many things about customer services and other stuff while we are on the way home. You know what? I think he kinda look like Simon Cowell! Hahaha!!}

My first trip to an Indian-style marriage

After Steve got me to the monorail, Stephanie called me. She told me that Ema’s sis wedding ceremony will on tonight! Why she didn’t tell me earlier? Luckily my parents allowed me to go despite I was out this noon. My sis followed me, as Steph came fetch us there. We were an hour late while we were there. The temple looked nice, the ceremony looked nice. The lights, the decors, the clothes, the crowds, the newly-weds and the heat. As you know Indians light up lots of stuff and wear so many Jasmine flowers (I think it is Jasmine). The air was stuffy and no fan for the newly-weds. The bride was sweating like she just had a bath! All her mates were wiping sweat off until they ran out of tissues! Steph and Ema were my ex-colleague while I was working as an assistant at my ex-secondary school computer lab. Steph is my pet sister too! Taking about Ema, she looked damn great that night! Here is Steph and Ema. Somebody walked around with some yellow rice grains. People took it, and I was wondering why. Nearly the end of the ceremony, not knowing what happened, after the newly-weds exchanged their Jasmine flower necklace, everybody threw the yellow rice at them. I guess it is just like the Christian’s marriage. Then, the dinner was served. It wasn’t like Chinese, where they wait for all people to sit and send up the food. It was an Indian vegetarian buffet. I like Indian food actually, and the meal was great! Especially the rice – Nasi Briyani! I’m thinking, maybe I’ll have an Indian style wedding ceremony too! Haha! The bears in front of the wedding car. So nice~

Day after the hair cut

Haiz… The hairstyle I got was supposed to be shown in a good way, but the foolish me was unable to get it right! Was I missing the correct the ingredient (wax/clay/spray) or I’m not born to be a hair stylist? Well, I guess I’m both. :’( Today I went out with Alex to Sungei Wang that area. I wasn’t in mood to go out tat day actually, he persuaded me – by saying Steve was out with them too. O… It’s Steve, the Mr. Nice Portuguese-Chinese Guy whom I met last swimming session with Alex. After talking to him, it was nice. Well, I’d like talk to him more often, coz he is really a guy with something in him. So, I went out with them. I bath and tried to get my hair look like yesterday. However, my genes failed me. Never mind, it’s ok. I’ll just look like a young innocent guy. So, as on the journey, the driver (Alex) was to pick up another person. So I thought, the car was already filled with 4 persons, Alex, Alvin, Chris and me, who else will get on board? I heard Alex said ‘Ray’. Hmm… familiar name. Do I know him? I don’t know. Anyway, another new friend for today I guess. To my surprise, it was my old friend (He changed his nickname). So, we both were surprised. So, we went chattering all the way to our destination, while all the other 3 was in silent mode. We’re supposed to meet Steve and another guy (I forgot his name) at Lot 10 food court, while we have our 4pm lunch there. One thing I saw interesting was that 2 girls was sitting at a table held a binocular each. I was wondering what they were trying to peek. As I turn around, I saw a table of young cute guys. OMG, nowadays girls are so daring. I planned to go Times Square and go for arcade, so I asked them whether they want to join. I need to be at home at 7pm, so if they are not to follow, I’ll go there myself. As Alex knew I am prone to play the dancing machine, he asked them to follow me. It was raining. I suggest running there, but Steve do not want that. I was wondering why. It’s like he has applied makeup and do not wanna get them wet. So, we got on for monorail. The queue was damn long! Lucky the guys were smart and got the ticket early. So we proceeded. After I finished my tokens, it was time for me to leave. Steve asked to accompany me. Why not? So we chattered to monorail station. He then told me, I danced good – amongst the people he knew. Great! I’m happy anyway.

Hello guysz!!!

There has been a long time. Sorry guyz cuz not bloggin for some time. I was too busy to overcome my personal emotions. During the exam time, I was somehow desperately in despair. Misery. Why? Dunno. What I felt was I needed somebody I trust to talk to, something like having back the [ngon chiuen gamm] >> the feeling of safe in Cantonese. How stupid. Doesn’t it only be needed by females? Well, dun get mistaken, coz male has something similar to PMS (Pre-menstrual Syndrome) oso!! Don’t believe? Check out this article from ‘The Star’. (I forgot which 1, but the star really has it...) Hmm… so, I’m on holiday now. Be prepared to get loads of writings and pictures posted this festive season! Gong Xi Fa Chai!

New Year, New Hair Cut!

Today was my last day of exam. Intro to C Programming. The paper was tougher than all the past years, but I managed to complete all the questions and got out of the room soon. > Actually I dun wanna get out so fast 1. but I dunno wat d invigilator was looking while I completed. He was starting at me… or my question paper. I got so shy and hand over quickly. ;) and I had to return a 5-day-dued fiction to the library. Haha. N then we went for RedBox LowYat as planned, with Jennie and Ryan. Hmm… Three young guy going to sing karaoke after exam = FUN! Well, maybe not as fun as expected, yet I had enjoyed the day. After that, I accompanied Jennie to Ann Professional Team hair saloon at LowYat. I got a hair cut! My hair stylist was Rocky. He was so talkative and asked so many questions, I liked it though. The first thing is of course ‘How you want your hair to be cut?’ Then, he continued asking questions about Jennie and so many things… Too shy to talk about this here. Too private, no revealing. Sorry. Guess yourself. While talking, he cut so fast. In just 30 min, I got my hair cut and styled. When I looked in the mirror, OMG! I can’t imagine myself looking this GOOD! It was really shocking! See the changes yourself. Then I accompanied Jennie to eat McDonald and get a bus back home. My bus arrived when her bus arrived, then I just got on the bus and went home. Feeling stupid cause didn’t show it to all ppl~ haha!! After I bathe at home, I fell in love of myself. Man, don’t I look good? Haha!!

Memorise texts, is it necessary?

While I was watching Jewel in The Palace episode 37( 8TV, 8.30pm Weekdays), a Korean traditional drama series which I was addicted to recently, the heroin’s medicine teacher asked her to memorise all the medical books. The heroin shockingly asked, “So much? But I do not understand them, how do I memorise them?” Her teacher told her just to memorise them, as she would know them later on. Then, I thought of an explanation of memorising texts from a Chinese poet in a television show (NTV7, Happy Family, 5.30pm, Weekdays). The host asked the poet whether primary school students should study and memorise Chinese sayings. The poet answers, “It’s like a cow eats a huge amount of grass, but it doesn’t mean that she will digests all her food. When she feels hungry, she will take out the food from her stomach and chew again. Same goes to our knowledge. When it is fed into our minds, it may not be useful. However when you have reach a certain time or situation, you will process the information and actually understands it. For example, you might not understand the saying ‘少壮不努力，老大图悲伤’(in chinese. Please switch encoding to simplified chinese to view these text) now, but when you are old and you did not make any effort to make your life better when you were young, you will really understand the meaning of the saying.” So, next time when you were asked to memorise something, please do so. Who knows, maybe someday you might save someone from committing suicide?

Soo Kui Jien >> The Malaysian Idol Host

Soo Kui Jien >> I just kinda think that he is so... cute. I know it might be so not 'in' for a guy to say a guy cute, but he really is. He is really a talented guy. Visit here to know him more. ;)

Oh my god, exam is coming!

I am now studying 2nd semester at TARC now, and the final exam is coming! Next week is the first subjuct, Bahasa Malaysia (The Malay Language). What I had in mind about college is that they used English as medium in all subjucts. Sadly, Malaysian Government has enforced that all educational institution must have at least a language related to the country. Well, it's not really that sad lar~ At least we still get in touch with our national language. ;) I'm taking 5 subjects this semester. BM, Engineering Mathematics(Sequence & Series, Differenciation, Integration, Statistic), Physics2, IT2, and Introduction to C Programming. Quite worried about this semester's exam. This is because I had attended a dance course half year dance course which has finally ended on 26 December 2004(I'll talk about it on the next post). Due to this course, I was unable to concentrate on my studies especially last month, as the rehearsal for the performances were on. To really cover up this 'mess', I would have to work harder in order to get at least 3.5 for CGPA.

All the best and good luck to me.

Buddhism and Love

I don't really know how you think about unusual sexual orientation but I had a special connection with it. Recently, I came across news of gay activist fought for the right of same sex marriage. Christianity forbits it and most people do too. How about Buddhism? Surf here to find out more about it. No matter you are homo/hetero/bi, you will gain something good after reading this article. Comment here if you have some.

!! Listen up, you pepps !!

I found a great place to download musics. It is YiSou from Yahoo! China I guess. But sadly it's in chinese. So, for all the pepps who know how to read chinese, download some songs for a test listening. If you like that song very much, please buy original CDs. Your support means big deal to the artists.

Aihui

One of my dancemate, a girl who is a journalist for some chinese megazines in Malaysia, has unfortunately being in a fatal accident and was at a very unstable state. She has to use aid to breathe. Yesterday, she passed away. I felt really sorry cause I have lost a good friend.

Aihui, rest in peace.

Sick :-(

Do you know how terrible a headache is? Very TeRrIbLe! I had my first (should be the first) headache in my life! Oh my gawd... The culprit:

• Sore throat (lasted two weeks)
• Flu(since yesterday I guess)
• Looking at the computer & TV screen for too long (Actually the headache started when I was blogging my first post)

I took 2 panadols and slept for two hours and I feel better already. But some vein around my right eye corner is in pain. I rub it repeated and the pain is even more intense that I could not even sleep. Instead of wasting my time doing nothing, I might just blog. My mother say that the pain around the eye means your eyes are too tired and has not recharged enough for the day. So, if you encounter such pain in the future, rest your eyes for your own sake.

This is a picture of mine, taken while my dance training. Some comments? 

!~ !~ !~ First time bloggin ~! ~! ~!

Hello everybody! My name is Eyrique (you can either pronounce it as e-ri-ke or eric will do). This is my first time blogging. So, as well you can call me as a rookie in blogging. Here is a little bit about me. Really just a LITTLE bit.

• Currently studying in Tunku Abdul Rahman College, Malaysia. Diploma in Science 1st Year(Information Technology, majoring in Microelectronics).
• I have passion in : Dance ~ Music ~ Performing Arts ~ Computer ~ Reading

Talking about blogging, I actually did not thought about blogging. Maybe thats because I have a somehow WeIrD life. Why suddenly I wanna get into blogging is that, I felt I have stuffs to tell the world. I have been through of some big moment in my life, and I just want to share it. ;)

I don't really know what esle to say here. So... take care everybody.