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Liking or hating?

Again hear me rant about my college. Erm, is it again? Well, nevermind. Just read and be glad that I am writing this down. Went over to college today, as usual. Feeling bored, as usual. The bus is waiting at Genting Klang to get it full before moving its big fat ass to college which makes me late, as usual. But I was not sleeping in the bus, not as usual. Surpricingly, the day went quite well today. First lesson was practical on Basic Microprocessors. CKN was our tutor. She is kinda new to this subject and, well, sometimes she seek student for answer. Cool huh? Today we were doing an experiment on PIA (Peripheral Interface Adapter), and we need to do something with the interupt. I think I got my program right and my circuit right, but then, it did not work. She was refering to another lecturer who was more experienced, the one who told us why dinosaurs extinct (read back to last year's post), CKK. While he was explaining, she did not understand some part of the explaination. After that, she raised her hand and ask questions. Aww! Isn't that cute?! I am so glad that I had her as my teacher! (Psst, tell you something. CKN and us, the class, we will kaypo about everything during class!) About CKK, well, I am starting to like him I think. Erm, to be honest, I have created quite a bad record for myself. I falls asleep in every lecture. EVERY lecture. Yes, I know. It is cracky. CCK was among those who first complaints about this comfy session I am having. It is not that comfy anyway. Following by all the other ME lecturers... (ME stands for Microelectronics, the course I am taking) Which is one of the reason why I do not really want to stay back at TARC to do my advance diploma. Was talking to Jennie about this. Well, almost all the time we talk about this. And she keeps 'zah' me also. I guess she just knows me too well. I was like asking her, what should I choose after my diploma year, either AdvDip or Utar. She has been asking me to apply for Utar as a precaution and additional option. Hence we move forward to buy the application form from the Admin. "I'm sorry, sold out" was what I got from them. Jennie and I was like WTF?? Utar so 'laku' ahh? The day turned even better after I started listening to my MP3 player with some new songs I got, which I downloaded in before I sleep last night, at 2.30am. Was sharing the songs with Jennie. Wow! There has been sooooooo long since we have ever listened to MP3s during classes. It was much brighter! The day was much brighter! Hmm, I guess I should keep it a habit huh? On the way back, Jennie asked me one thing. She asked, any reason why I do not want to stay for AdvDip. I couldn't give any specific. It was mainly the environment problem. The lecturers, the surroundings, and I think my future coursemates are gonna be only 3 or 4 person. Can I get through that? I don't mind studying, I told her, and myself. I guess I'll just study and get my Degree of John Moores University at Liverpool, UK. Hmm, since I have decided, I guess I should talk to my parents soon. Coz doing over to Liverpool requires at least RM 20k, and Jennie argued RM 30k. Ahh.. Whatever! As long as I got to study there, and do some sightseeing before coming back here. At least I was soaked in the salty water, as the chinese saying goes. =p

Rant #02 - Grumpy day

Continuing the sleepless frenzy, I slept at 5am. Then I woke up at 7++am. Got a morning call from my dear. Thx dear, you are so sweet! Then I go get ready, called up my friend to pick me up, and ate breakfast - Nasi Lemak! Aww, I was scared that my friend will arrive early, I rushed the breakfast in. I was feeling full then... I guess it was the alcohol chocolate I ate last night, I was feeling hyper in the morning. Well, probably I just faked it to hide the fact that I have only been sleeping for 2 hours. The effect slowly wear off when I got the hard truth about the day, there was a test on Basic Microprocessor and it was totally off my mind! I quickly finish my part in for the practical in the morning, and then I utilise the following half an hour time to read up a little before the test commence. When I was in the class for the test, CCK (the lecturer) was teaching new topics and mentioned that this is already the 2nd last week of the last semester in my diploma year. I can't believe I have been sleeping through all the diploma year. Yesh, I am a pig in class. People see my disregard because I sleep in their class. Oh well, I do feel suckish about that too okay FYI? Before and during the test, I sensed that CCK kept 'zah' me. I was really frustrated by his annoying act and ... ARGH!! I just hate it. I didn't managed to finish my test, but I managed to do most of them anyway. Lucky I read before the test. Meanwhile the lecture and the test, I was feeling damn sleepy, effects wear off. Besides the CCK 'zah' me thingy, I was feeling suckish about that. Lunch time. It was ... okie. But then, I couldn't tahan not sleeping already. The later class, it was a maths tutorial, a replacement class. I really did not give face to the lecturer and I slept through the whole tutorial. I know I suck. Thank you. Now, I still feel suckish why I couldn't choose where to go after my diploma, either advance or UTAR. Really sad. Moreover, things between me and my parents aren't going that well. Want to share this with them, but then ... I'm afraid. Know why? Because I don't know whether will I still have mood to continue studying. I mentioned this to my mum. She was like, you want to study, meh? Of course she didn't just make the assumption that I do not want to study. She can see through my sleepless frenzy, and my previous outing frenzy. Frenzy frenzy frenzy. I'm really looking forward to the Cameron trip with dear, Joa and Ah Kong. Really want to feel the holiday spirit again.

Night Ghost

Damn the sleepless frenzy. I have been sleeping at 4/5 am recently. Dang. Why?? Reason #1 - The computer. I have stuck on the computer since I got it back. FYI, I lost my lappie and desktop to the thunder storm and I had live without computer for almost 2 weeks. Reason #2 - Waiting for someone special. This has been a habit ever since then. Reason #3 - The computer. Again. What I have been doing online:-

• Check mail - but then most of them aren't necessary.
• Chat
• Blog - rarely thou.
• Download things
• Porn

Sick right? I am sure most of you do the same. Now, don't complain and shout out at my beloveds ShoutBox. =p

Attraction, Distraction - Added feature!!

News on Attraction, Distraction. The owner of this blog has added some feature in the blog. He has added some of his friends' blog links and added a ShoutBox from Oggix.com. So, call all the peeps out there VISIT da blog!! Life is about sharing right? Hmm.. feeling extra like sharing things now. =D Kiss da ass!! XD Don't forget to shout yea! *hugz to those who shout!*

Rant #01 - Dumbo world, perfect world

Suddenly I feel like I'm living in a dumbo world. Why does things must happen? Does it really mean to teach us lessons? Sometimes I wish life is like, what I wanted. The perfect world for me to live in. But then, this is kinda impossible to achieve. Is it really possible to build the perfect world for muaself? Have you ever heard, to make things simple, there must be a really complex base. Taking example of the Operating System we are using. Windows XP and Mac OS X. Both of this OS is very user friendly. But if you try to see the programming codes for these OSs, you'll go blind. Just the amount of programmer researching the way to program these OS are large. See, so many people and experiences, the end result is a very simple, easy to use, friendly OS. So, does that mean, for me to have my perfect world, I will have to make things complicated and put a lot of effort in it? I guess you might say, JUST BLEND IN!!! Blend in? No way! There is so many things I can't stand! There is so many things I want to do instead of blending in! Well, even IF I wanted to blend in, NO WAY I'm blending in the situations I am currently at. It SUX! I hope I have done ranting and am feeling better. To all those if you want to know why am I ranting about this, read the previous posts. You might get a hint.

Confusion in life.. Take it or leave it?

I would first like to say a BIG BIG SOWIEEEEEEE for not updating my this tiny little chapters of my life for a very very loooooooong time. SOWIE!! Btw, thanks for all the peeps out there who DO actually visit my page to check whether is my bloggiez updated. THANKIEZZZ!! Big hugz to all of you!! Have been through a LOT. I mean like... A LOT. I traveled to Hatyai and Hong Kong after my exams period. Then, I was kinda in my 'winter phase' of my year, where my biggest depression period are. Yesh depression. All sorts of depression come. Love life, financial, COMPUTER PROBLEM, choices to make and etc. Anyway, all these depressions are about to be over I guess, because I finally... FINALLY, get to sit still and determined to write a new bloggiez entry!! Now, lets talk about why I wasn't determined to write my blog. I was feeling confused, and all the sudden, I feel like, the world is ending soon. Thats why I didn't really bother writing. Yeah right you may say. The world is ending. But, how would you explain all the natural disasters and all the you-know-what which kinda kills or contribute to losses? Well, and the most important thing is. I feel less organized already. I used to be a quite organized person. Not to say very. I like to do stuffz last minutes. As the feeling is being busy at the last minute make me feel powerful... A cheh... What a wrong mind set. This kinda habit is known as 'The Procrastinator' as written in 'The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens'. (Yes I have been reading it, but then I don't really read all of them. Don't have enough determination to do so.) It says The procastinator is addicted to urgency. He/she likes to put things off and put things off and put things off ... until it becomes a crisis. To those who had worked with me before, you know what I mean. To those who haven't, please just erase off this part of the blog from your memories. Thank you! XD Okie. Here comes the main part of the blog, where it is related to the topic above. The confusion. While I was typing these, it took me like ... 15 minutes to clear off my mind because there was some interrupts.. I think I have kinda forgotten about what I wanna write. Oh kay~ here goes nothing! There is 2 major decision I need to make. First, my educational path which will directly affect my career path, which will also affect my life path. I wanted to do a LOT of stuffz in life. I wanna achieve a LOT of stuffz in life. But then, my educational path doesn't really opens a huge door to what I wanna do in life. It does offers me a good working opportunity, which will surely generate an amount of monthly income. I can use the income to achieve what I want in life, but I hope this can be done. Ahh well, I don't seem to have much choice. Either to continue to persue my degree in what I'm doing now, Microelectronics, at TAR College, or move over to UTAR, taking relevant courses or irrelevant courses but relevant to what I wanna do in life. After reading this, you might wonder why don't I just choose what I wanna do in life? Well, sometimes there are blocks here and there. I actually was thinking to get into Hotel Management, but then my parents was like ... there is no future there. But one of my final goal in the future is related to this! Okay, lets keep this aside. I can still continue that after I have some modals and partners to start this. Management skills can be learnt whenever izzit rite? I would also want to get into PR! Organizing events is like the heavenly job to me. But then, bare with me, I'm afraid to step into this field. I don't have much knowledge in this, but I would always LOVE to be a part of this (which my parents don't really want me to do since my secondary school year). Performing arts. What a great thing to do in life. Yet another thing my parents don't want me to be in. Almost all my goals/dreams are halted because my parents doesn't like it. I hate this. What they want me to do is, keep it all to my computers. (To those who don't know, I'm an IT guy, kinda knows some here and there.) Which kinda refers me back to be a Technical person. Aih... Here goes my 1st confusion. But then, I plan to stick with my original plan, which is to obtain a degree in what I'm doing first. I can always venture into other parts later. The second confusion. The Multi Level Marketing a.k.a. alternate franchising. Have been ushered to join this ... like very long ago adi. Don't know what should I feel about it. Should I join? Or should I just ignore and be normal people? I have heard all sorts of testimonials. Pros and cons. But then again, my parents. They totally objected it, and kinda forced me to not joining it. Well, indeed I agree. I have yet to have the preparation to join and work these things out. I have given all of my MLM choices a thought. I can imagine myself in a good position. But then, now izzen the time for me to start this business yet. NOT READY, financially, emotionally and in terms of freedom. So, my final choice: Do it later when I'm ready, which is few years later. As all things are, there are pros and cons. Cons for the choice of the first confusion: I dun think there will be a very good studying environment, which I'm kinda sick of for the past few semesters. Cons for the choice of the second confusion: I'll earn much lesser by then compared to all my friends... Life is all about choices huh? One reminder, you can choose to live the life you want. And choose to be happy always! ^^

When trouble follows examinations...

Today is my first day of examination for the 5th semester a.k.a. 2nd year 2nd semester in my diploma college life. Paper examined - Advance Engineering Mathematics 1. Before this paper starts, I have encountered with quite some troubles. Well, most of them is because I am careless. Yesh, I'm some careless freako. I shall go back in time. 1 week before the first paper I was damn bored at home. Couldn't really concentrate on studies. Or shall I say, I didn't study at all? Went over to Jennie's on Wed, I think, thought of studying with her, but then end up ordering Domino's online. It was damn nice. Pizza. Ultimate Hawaiian Chicken Pepperoni. RM 26.80. Delivery 10 minutes late. Did not get free pizza voucher. Then ate at Friday's with my dear, shared Shrimp and Half Ribs. It was damn nice too. RM 128. Laze around at home, boring, boring, bored. Did not even try to look at the books. In addition to having cleaning sessions at home, I was not in mood to study. But I had done something great. I finally packed my wardrobe, my desk, and my room. Yesh! At last... The way I wanted. Nice and clean. Yesh, I did clean it. Cleaned all the webbings and dirt which had stayed there for like, 4 years? This is my desk. Amazingly it can be that organized. I didn’t expect it to be that organized. My laptop, then my Sonic Gear Tatoo-330, above the subwoofer is my books then the rack on top of it. At the edge of the table is the current affairs partition, then all the scrap papers are used as my mouse pad, and some other stuffz there. And the pencil holder in front of the subwoofer is holding some useless stuffz. And the magnificent stuff hanging at the edge of the rack is a paper holder, holding whatever interesting. This is my notice board in the room. Not that organized, but it is meant to keep my room less plain. Together with some of my memorable stuffz. Then there is this cupboard underneath the board, which contains stuffz I would hide, and don’t ask. Finally had a collection of my own set of grooming stuffz. Clean & Clear Foaming Facial Wash, Men’s Bioré Facial Foam and Scrub (Sample), Nivea Deodorant (hidden), and the White Musk set from The Body Shop I bought as a Mother’s Day present for my mum. She didn’t use it because she could not stand the smell. And only after HALF A YEAR she is willing enough to pass it down to me. 1 day before the first paper The day before the first paper is a Sunday. Talked to Joshi-kun last night, kind of promised to meet today at the night market. After my dinner with my family, I went out with him. Had a walk in the market. It was jammed with humans. We went off to go for a drink instead, with Ed-chan and Izaac. Went to Green Town and had a drink and some snack. Their Fried Hotdog sucked. Imagine frying hotdog the Chinese way, with onions and chilies. Had a good yum-char time. Happy things do ends. I got traumatized by my dad for reaching home late. When I got the message from my sister saying my dad was angry at me and locked the gate, I was really lost. Joshi-kun then rushed to send me home. After I reached home, I saw the gate was really locked. I called my sister to open the gate for me. Before I get to enter the house, I have to get 1 round of scolding by my mum. There is just one thing. I had to SNEAK into my house. Pathetic. Reason my dad got angry at me – Not home before 12. After I got in the house, I charged my phone. My phone battery died after dinner, so I did not get anything since then. My sister contacted me through Joshi-kun. After I turned on my phone, I got more surprises. My di(Jeremy) told me his bike is stolen. Then some angel contacted me and talked to me about some stuffz regarding reaching home late. It traumatized me. Both the things. After getting all the traumatism, I couldn’t sleep. Moreover I did not really finished studying. I tried to sleep. I couldn’t. I woke up, switch on the computer, and online. I wanted to listen to some really nice songs, which will soothe me. You and Me – Lifehouse Kiss Me – Sixpence None the Richer Tong Hua – Guang Liang (童话 – 光良) Emotion – Destiny Childs Take a Bow – Madonna Walk Me Home – Mandy Moore Luxurious – Gwen Stefani Chocolate – Kylie Minogue Stickwityou – Pussycat Dolls I Do – Rain I watched the MTV of ‘Walk Me Home’, it sucked; and totally killed my impression of Mandy Moore in ‘A Walk to Remember’ movie. After the song treatment, I felt much better. It was then 2.30 am. It is time to sleep. Suddenly my sister came into my room. It was her turn to feel traumatized. We talked for a while, and listening to ‘Luxurious’. After we felt much better, she went back to her room, and I climb onto my sweet loving cuddly bed. Few hours before the first paper I woke up quite late. It was already 10 am. I got ready and proceed to Jennie’s place. We discussed about past year questions and stuffz. When it was half an hour to exam, we got ready to leave to college. I check my examination stuffs, stationeries, ID, exam slip. OMG. I forgot my exam slip! 30 minutes before the first paper Jennie accompanied me to the examination department and got a temp exam slip. Jennie was shocked to see so many people went and ask for temp slip. She really was. And she said, the people issuing the temp slip must be damn angry. Erm, guess so… Few seconds before the first paper I was damn blur because I didn’t bring my exam slip. When I got in the exam hall, I didn’t bring my calculator, I wrote the attendance slip wrongly… I tried to calm myself. During the first paper It went well surprisingly. Although some questions I not sure, it still went well. I was glad. After the first paper It was great after finishing the first paper. I felt like studying for exam already. Went over to Jennie’s for a while, and we ate ICE-CREAM! It was nice! When I got home, I have a plan on my mind. I thought of bathe, then watch the finale of one Hongkie series then blog this post, then pack stuffs for the next paper to study. It was ruined. When I was watching the series half way, suddenly power went off. NO POWER!!! No power at 9 PM!! That’s so early! I sat around, listen to MP3, talked on the phone with Ed-chan, then Joshi-kun, then slept. I was really hoping the power would come back before I sleep. Sadly, it came back at 4am. 4 freaking am. I was sleeping like baby already. The word 'Fook' I took when its no power, the shadow of the fate-twisting bamboo.

Am I just lucky or what?

who? 3 freakin jobless Malay wandering around the street underneath Bandaraya star LRT station who wanted to steal coins from the soft drink vending machine where? on the walkway from Bandaraya star LRT station to Bank Negara KTM station how? I was walking past the vending machine, kinda saw them and they called me, I ignored them and walked on. They then came up to me from behind and tell me to give them RM 10, kinda politely and said he don't want to do this with knife. I didn't have. I just offered them my RM 4. Obviously they are disappointed, then they asked what handset I'm using. I don't want to risk my handset, so I just sneaked off to the side. The guy approached me got held on to my bag, but then I forced the bag to stay with me and ran off. That guy used his fist and punched my ear, he didn't aim well enough to hit my face. Then I just ran off. There was a lot of people there, but no one seemed to care. Or they are just too afraid to care. Malaysians. Scared to get involved. Well, I kinda do believe that other people would also assume nothing happened. I saw a lot of these cases happening, but I dare not to do anything, because I was alone... Ah well, I guess I just try not to look at those threatening person next time. Thank god I'm still alive and nothing happened to me.

Useless Me

My college has a blood donation campaign (NBDC), I was dragged by Jennie to become her assistant. PA Assistant, the same post in the last BDC. Aih... So, it was in the week 6 of my current semester. The week before was public holiday, Deeparaya. And I wasn't really working hard previously. I skipped all the lectures on the week. Well, almost all. At least i attended Electronics' lecture, mm only 2 hours I think. ^^;; Well, the campaign was okie, but then was lacking a lot of sleep, because I do stuffs last minute, which is NOT a very good habit and it killed me EVERYTIME, and yet I still don't change. Summore, had some arguement with my dear and made me cried damn lot. Never cried so much. I cried two day in a row, and really really a LOT!! Neways, things' fine now. I hope. And throughout the whole semester, I didn't do my tutorials, didn't revise, didn't do whatever is need to do by a student. I used to be a lot luckier, because all the test I won't afraid although I didn't really study. This time, test came. I just done two test. And I did badly. BADLY. I was... blank... BLANK! I was dissappointed at myself. Disappointed. Why? Why can't I do well? Why things turned out this way? I guess too much Internet-ing and lack of SELF-CONTROL!!! Useless me... I hate it when I can't control myself! But then it still happens. Ahh.. just wanna release my stress. Have a big FLU today and had some health prob previously... hope things turn out better soon. And, I guess I'm getting on track with my streamyx down. Started doing tutorials liao. Hehe~ ^^ Yet, I still feel myself getting more and more stupid. Noticing all my coursemates are advancing and I'm lagging all the way behind, I felt damn useless. Useless me. Ahh well, one stupid post. Anything you wanna scold please write in comment. Thanks. All scoldings are accepted with open heart.

Headache

Suddenly I felt headache today. It comes so slowly that I didn't even notice it coming. It has been quite some day. A lot of thinking went through my mind. I started acting weird, in front of everybody especially my dear. Dear, I'm sorry. There has been too much things happening recently. Sometimes I just feel like being with you alone all time, without caring any other thing *tune of You and Me by Lifehouse playing*. Thanks for being a great support to me.

Maybe there is too much online session, mosquitoes bites, non-regular sleep pattern, sleeping in class, tutorials, undone and tough assignment because no guidance, suckish lecturer, parental disapproval, financial problems, etc... AH.. damn.. I'm only 19, why do I have to suffer from all this? (This is the famous quote from Jennie)

Sometimes I just feel like the world is goning to end soon. Accidents are getting more and more, stuffs are getting more and more expensive, my wallets feels more and more empty, natural disaster are getting more and mroe frequent (although I don't really read the news), newspaper reading session are getting lesser and lesser, interest are getting blurer and blurer, stuffs are getting messier, things are getting harder...

And something which I thought it is going to happen only in the drama has been told to me that it has happened real life, and to some of my closest friends. Yeah, I know it is naive to think that things that are happening in drama aren't going to happen in real life as drama is the reflection of the real life.

House burgary, teenage pregnancy, severe family problems backed with a gambler as a father of the family, relationship problems with a 6 years and a 1 month, juggling between preferences and requests, communication problems, and felt like things are going against my will.

Ahh, they say humans have "Sam sui look wong" (3 years of bad luck and 6 years of prosperity). I kinda have a feeling this year is one of my 'sam sui'. But not really 'sui' la... Someone found me, and we are together for half a year already, and I'm glad it happened.

Ah well, I guess things are gonna get better. Before I wrote this, I had a headache, face muscle cramp and feel damn tensed. I guessed thats because I have been wanting to write a post but I didn't really write one.

Ahh.. better get back to work.. Let me see, what I need to do... NBCD, Poster, Flash, Presentation, Tutorials...

P/S: Dear, I really want to cuddle with you badly...

Grandpa Birthday Dinner

Today I went for my grandpa's birthday's dinner. Went over to this restaurant in Subang Village near the Subang Airport. Sunny Seafood Restaurant. Aww.. the place damn sux ler~ All the food tasted sooo bad. Fish and meat aare so raw that it couldn't be eaten. *_* SUX!! Here is the list of dishes ordered: Steamed Chicken Steamed Fish Streamed Pork Ribs Hakka-Fried Pork Tofu SharkFin Petai (Smelly beans) with minced meat, without chillis Baku Vege, without chillis Longevity Noodles All these dishes are even worse than home cooked. The steamed chicken was ok, the fish was too raw and tasted fishy, and the pork rib was too raw too. Hakka-Fried Pork was ok, and the Tofu Sharkfin was.. eww.. its like all mixed up together. The petai and the baku vege should be cooked with sambal as those are Malay dishes, without sambal it tasted really badly. I know it is not going to taste good so I didn't even touch those dishes. Rumours says those dishes are cooked without sambal is because of my uncle. The only thing I like is just the longevity noodles. This restaurant really sux ler~ We waited for sooo long then only the dishes arrives, and the food tasted sooo badly. I wonder who ordered these dishes.. all these are normal dishes where it can be cooked at home. If it is a birthday dinner, can't we order more special things? I have done my say. Thank you.

About love - again

It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return, but what is most painful is to love someone and never finding the courage to let the person know how you feel. Maybe God wants us to meet a few wrong people before meeting the right one so that when we finally meet the right person, we should know how to be grateful for that gift. Love is when you take away the feeling, the passion, the romance - and you find out you still care for that person. A sad thing about life is when you meet someone that means a lot to you, only to find out in the end, that it was never bound to be and you just have to let go. When one door of happiness closes, another opens but often we look so long at the closed door that we don't see the one which has been opened for us. The best kind of friend is the one you could sit on a porch, and swing with, never say a word, and then walk away feeling like that was the best conversation you've had. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we lose it, but it's also true that we don't know what we've been missing until it arrives. Giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they'll love you back, don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their hearts but if it doesn't, be content it grew in yours. There are things you love to hear but you would never hear it from the person from whom you would like to hear it, but don't be deaf to hear it from the person who says it with his heart. Never say goodbye when you still want to try , never give up when you still feel you can take it, never say you don't love that person anymore when you can't let go. Love comes to those who still hope, even though they've been disappointed, to those who still believe , even though they've been betrayed, need to love those who still love even though they've been hurt before.

Diary 26-08-2005

Was damn tired for very long. Slept very late and woke up very early most of the times. Slept in class always. Maybe used to it, yesterday I slept quite a lot. Took a 3 hour nap and slept at 1.30am yesterday. Felt good when woke up in the morning. Haven't been feeling this fresh for a long time; and I yet I had a hard time getting off the bed. It is like heaven~! Well, if someone was on the bed with me, it would really be heaven! Although was fresh in the morning, I was still late for class. There was a test going on too! I got there half an hour late, and I managed to finish the questions before time. It's the subjet I'm best in, Introduction to OOP (the JAVA programming). Haha... Then Electronics lecture. The lecturer which is not so liked caused he doesn't really handle his whatever-is-it well. Well, if your have read my previous post, he is the one who told us how dinosaur extinct. Check back June 2005 archive. OK. We had a electronics test last tuesday, and that test has made me almost gone mad! Well, mostly is because I didn't know how to solve the questions. Some very important part of the paper, AC analysis of a BJT and a FET transistor. I stared at the tutorials for so long then only I got to know how it worked. And I am yet to know how they really worked. About today, he gave us back the test paper for us to mark. My course rep was like, "WHAT? Ask us to mark?" And the complaints continues. Actually I don't think he is that bad. It's just that the way he handle stuffs are... different. Well, he did made me knew how lecturer give marks on our exam papers today. So, I guess there is a praise from me. Not to give too much negative thinkings. It does affect studies. Lunch hour today was nice. It rained. The canteen was a bit dark. I suggested a candle light lunch. Ooo... well, we didn't really lid candle. We just sat there eat out lunch enjoying the cool breeze, and some water drizzle into our food. JiaYin has a nice game on her 7610, its a mosquitoe whacking game, which it uses your camera view as background, and place mosquitoes onto the virtual map, and requires you to move your phone like a gun, to shoot the mosquitoe. So, its like you'll have to move your camera up down left right to find them, and kill them. What a game. Really have to praise the game maker. Circuit & Signal tutorial class. Drizzling outside. It will feel so nice to sleep. Yawnz... OK, concentrate on tutorial. I'm damn left out in this subject also. Now only got to know how to solve the phasor circuit properly. Sad. Well, cheerz cause know how to solved already. ^^ Something happened. TWH, a guy we don't really like in out course, he took off his shirt in class! I was like WTF. I didn't really noticed that when he did that. But then yeoh suddenlly told me that I'm lost. I was wandering what have I lost. When I looked behind I was really like... WTF OMG GTH. The reason I was lost cause I joked I wanted to strip when we was in canteen after our meal for the air was so breezy. Ewww... get lost la you TWH~ Then, went over to Mid Valley to watch All About My Dog, a jap movie all about my dogs. Its damn nice, and damn sad. I cried a lot in the movie. All dog owners really should watch this... Ahh.. ok, I'm sleepy already. Talk to you next time k? Bloggie...

Yes, dear

It would appear that men now have a good excuse for what women call "selective" deafness. You see, according to the recent scientific research, men have little control over their lack of listening powers when it comes to female voice, simply because the male brain finds it difficult to process "complex female tones". adapted from StarTwo 22 August 2005, written by mary schneider in but then again

Some wonderful words

Read Carefully and Understand the Meanings: Nobody is perfect until you fall in love with them. Love starts with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a tear. Don't cry over anyone who won't cry over you. What do you do when the only person who can make you stop crying is the person who made you cry? If love isn't a game, why are there so many players? Good friends are hard to find, harder to leave, and impossible to forget. You can only go as far as you push! Actions speak louder than words. The hardest thing to do is watch the one you love, love somebody else. Don't let the past hold you back, you're missing the good stuff. Life's short. If you don't look around once in a while you might miss it. A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have. Some people make the world special by just being in it. Best friends are the siblings God forgot to give us. When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there. True friendship never ends. Friends are forever. Good friends are like stars....you don't always see them, but you know they are always there. Don't frown, you never know who is falling in love with your smile. Everything is okay in the end. If it's not okay, then it's not the end. Most people walk in and out of your life, but only friends leave footprints in your heart. If u love something...let it go. If it comes back to you its yours.... If it doesn't then it never was. A kiss is just a kiss until u find the one you love. A hug is just a hug>until its from the one ur thinking of. A dream is just a dream until u make it come tru. LOVE is just a word until its proven 2 u. To realize The value of a sister Ask someone Who doesn't have one. To realize The value of ten years: Ask a newly Divorced couple. To realize The value of four years: Ask a graduate. To realize The value of one year: Ask a student who Has failed a final exam. To realize The value of nine months: Ask a mother who gave birth to a still born. To realize The value of one month: Ask a mother who has given birth to A premature baby. To realize The value of one week: Ask an editor of a weekly newspaper. To realize The value of one hour: Ask the lovers who are waiting to Meet. To realize The value of one minute: Ask a person Who has missed the train, bus or plane. To realize The value of one-second: Ask a person Who has survived an accident... To realize T! he value of one millisecond: Ask the person who has won a silver medal in the Olympics Time waits for no one. Treasure every moment you have. You will treasure it even more when you can share it with someone special. To realize the value of a friend: Lose one. The origin of this letter is unknown, But it brings good luck to everyone who passes it on. Do not keep this letter. Forward! it to friends to whom you wish good luck Peace love and prosperity to all

Hazie

Hie guyz. There has been a long time since I have posted something here, something personal, something which I wrote myself. Well, I have been busy. Busy with dating, matchmaking, listening songs, last-minute-jobs, and wasting time.

15 July 2005 9.57 a.m., I’m on bus on the way to college. Felt bored. I took out my mp3 player. Plug on and played. The left side of the earphone spoilt. WTF. Playing “一秒感动 - 王菀之”. When I looked up and see through the bus window, I couldn’t really see the peak of KLCC clearly, because it is covered with white clouds. White clouds? What happened to KL? I took another look; it was grayish haze, canopying KL. Is KL sick? Well, I guess it isn’t just KL who is sick. I’m sick too. Love sick, anti-college sick, sleep sick, blog sick… Last week I got sick. I was too tired and I slept late. Caught a sore throat, a huge fever, back brain migraine, and left arm ligament ache. Now I’m still infested with flu and cough. My nose is in worse condition. All inner skin was damaged by the body heat, and I keep peeling off the dead skin… Is that why I’m still sick? My acne is worse. It’s like my whole forehead is covered with dark spots here and there. How can such a handsome guy be infested with such dark spots on his face? What a shame. Used whitening scrub. Patiently waiting for result.

The weather has been bad. Haze has been covering KL. The stupid Indons burn forest at Sumatera. They burn because they want to plant stuffs for Hari Raya and Chinese New Year. If they burn now, the ashes will be their fertilizer and it will be just in time to harvest the items when its celebration time. They are so selfish. The haze has actually struck us for many years; it is just that it was not as serious as this time. I still remember there was once; I think should be in 1997, when I was in primary 5, the weather was damn bad too. We have to like, wear only a special mask namely N95 if I’m not mistaken. It was so scary. The API reached 500++ back then. At least it didn’t reach that bad this time. Just that feeling you are in Genting Highland surrounded by smoky-burnt-wood haze doesn’t feel good. Taking all the short breaths, activity got limited, and getting yourself in a supposingly a heavenly hazy surrounding but with foul smell is just so off. Thank god there is masks, and rain, and wind. Now the haze has been blown away. But I kind of feel sad for the people. Why do we have to suffer what other people have done? It is so unfair.

What 'Love' is all about..

I want to share this to all those who have loved and been hurt, those who haven't loved at all and those who are just about to discover the beauty of this dynamic emotion. When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love,it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if his or her happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best. If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unlessyou give it a try. You'll never truly love a person you love unless you RISK FOR LOVE. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love. Love doesn't hurt all the time, though the hurting is still there to test you and to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing its chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages. Love is not destroyed by a single failure nor won by a single caress. It is a lifetime venture in which we arealways learning, relearning, discovering, rediscovering, and growing. The greatest irony of love is LETTING GO WHEN YOU WANT TO HOLD ON and HOLDING ON WHEN YOU NEED TO LET GO. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get back on the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time. To love is to risk rejections; to hope is to risk failure; to reach for another is to risk involvement; to expose your feelings is to expose your true self; to love is to risk not to be loved in return. Butisn't it living is to risk of dying? Risk must be taken because THE GREATEST HAZARD IN LIFE IS RISKING NOTHING! How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain. Love is like a knife. It CAN STAB THE HEART but it also CAN CARVEWONDERFUL IMAGES INTO THE SOUL THAT LAST FOR A LIFETIME! Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in theend. Loving people means giving them the freedom that they choose to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that these were the things which helped you grow. Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. When you give your heart to someone, you're also giving him or her the power to tear and break your heart into pieces. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is LOVE. Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love because every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured that's why it is called falling in love...

Why we love someone

All life represents a risk, and the more lovingly we live our lives the more risks we take.....

You love someone with or without them you just continue to love them
No one can replace them forever
You love someone for who they are
You love someone without asking for anything in return
You love them not because you want to be with them but because you can't live without them
Your love to them will never change even when they are not with you
You always wish to see them happy
You love them forever even when you don't have them you still love them and that never goes less.

You are an angel and I but a mere mortal.
We are worlds apart. I must love you from a distance.
When it rains, look to the sky and think of the drops of water as tears from angels.

If I ever saw an angel, it was in your eyes.
The angel of love will fill your heart and you will have all you seek in time to come.
Twinkling stars, too many to count, like angels in heaven.

Love is the salutation of the angel to the stars.

How to eat Kim Gary's / Mong Kok's bread

Many find the big breads there very hard to eat. One of my best friend show me a way. Look at these pictures. Share this with others.