Masks, Dramas, Human Feelings

Here's a comment written to my pet brother's blog. Please visit here to see the original post.

Dear didi, Everyone has their own secrets which they do not want to reveal to everyone in the world. Its like playing a card game, where you do not reveal all your card/show hand at once u duel with your opponent. I have some so-called dark side I haven't told you, which I would like to share with you soon, when time comes. As you see in some movies, people hid their feelings under a happy face, because some of them are really desperately needed to be hidden. For example, what will you do if you found out that your best friends is not like what you see them, and is totally 180 degrees different when you are not with them? "Life is but a masquerade, One which we are forced to play, We don our mask and play our parts, Unable to say what's in our hearts. The stage is set as the curtain rises, And so begins another day, The people come onstage with perfect faces, Though tormented by the parts they play. So many things still unsaid, Silet in these sufferings, Yet this part has to be played, Forever bound by puppet strings Traped in a mental cage, In this silence suffocating, Crying behind the stage, Behind this mask slowly dying. Bound by chains unseen, Kept in invisible captivity, Waiting for the changing of scenes, Waiting to be free..." I got this poem from a friend, he wrote it when he was feeling sad. Althought I don't really understands what he would like to portray, the basic meaning is there. Life is like a stage drama. I have some suggestion on what you should do. First, you should no be stressed out by this so-called problems. It's happenning every second. Even you have something you do not want to tell other people right? Secondly, if you really want to help them to have the feeling of the happy colour without the mask, you really need to get close to him or her, even if you do, he/she might not have tell you everything. Convince him/her that you'll understand and really help them to try solve the problems. Finally, really give true smiles to everyone and hugs to those whom you care. Althought it might not be significant, at least it will somehow make their day.

Remember, do smile always, make someone's day better, you will feel better. ^.^

Why dinasour extinct

You must wonder why I suddenly come up with this. Actually, my lecturer told me this. Althought we must have heard they extinct because comet dropped on earth. Yes. That's the main cause. But wat happen after the comet crash is what should be paid attention. Scientists discovered large crate (holes left by comet) in the sea, this proves that the comet really dropped on earth. In many writings, they says earth has been through Ice Age. It's true. Now, let me explain. Comet crashed on earth at high speed and extream heat, reaching 5000˚c, which is far hotter than earth's highest melting point object, diamond, which is merely 3500˚c. So, basically all object melted when the comet crashed. The vaporation of the melted object in form of dusts and carbons covered the whole atmosphere, thus sunlight could not warm the earth. And then, the Ice Age begins. So, as the explanation goes, do you think dinasours are able to survive in 5000˚c? If they happen to be at the other side of the world, could they survive at a temperature way below 0˚c? What do they at to survive when plants even died? So, they extinct. Then, another age begins. Wow, looks like something in "The Day After Tomorrow". ^.^

State 4 of College - State Starts

Urghh.. After 6 weeks of unplanned holidays ended, I found myself having a hardcore timetable for my 4th semester in college. Ahhhh!! Okay, on the 1st day, still okie ler... First class, Circuits & Signals's practical class. Oh Shit. How can we have practical on the first day? Well, we had. The teacher haven't even introduce himself, he gave us the lab manual and ask us to do the experiment already. Well, luckily I paid attention 300+ days ago, cause that is the continuation of the subject I learnt - "Basic Electronics". So, plugging here soldering there, we managed to do the experiment. Well, as it's on the first day, all equiptments we did not bring. So, we had to borrow from school. Ahh well, it's ok thou. Next time must remember to bring the DMM (Digital Multi-Meter). Then, lunch time ^.^ I had my usual mixed rice, and damn the canteen, the mixed rice price got up too. It's RM1.90!! It was 10 cents cheaper! Well, the food aren't that good, and aren't that clean, that's why I'm whining. Then, a must-take subject ordered by the government - "Tamadun Islam dan Asia", literaly means "Islamic and Asian Civilization". So, got to know the teacher, then she was talking about how good Islam is, how was back then, why the people were fighting in Jeruselam of Pakistan (erm. actually, all of them have the same belief, just that the different prophet conducted different message, and people got more selfish). Erm, the teacher told lots of stuff. I hope the information is correct, and I think is good that the government enforce that. Yay... 1st day of 2nd year of 1st semester ended. Felt great~ ^^ Looking forward for tomorrow~ ^^

Blog Competition

<<>> Sad... Sometimes I wonder, is my blog attractive? Keeping a log about one's life is that easy? Writing blog is cool? Oh shit, what am I crapping here? Huuh... Just felt stupid for keeping a blog when no one reads it. Hmm... Playing Now << 手放开 - 李圣杰 >> Huuh... Added some features in my blog, Google search, Google ads, Bravenet Counter, changed layout... Should I spend time create my own template? Haizz... I'll do it sometime, not now. College starting soon. All the honeymoon memories will be kept in mind. Hopefully the missing-someone part will be much enlightening then burdoning.

Dear, you sometimes just made me miss you too much... You are good la.

Blog Blog... Be nice ok? Don't worry. I'll spend time to write to you. ^^

I'm BILL CLINTON! ~ ah.. shut up..

A personality test I took. Hmm.. well, it did describe some of me. Haha.

What Famous Leader Are You? personality tests by similarminds.com

Global Personality Test Results

Stability (37%) moderately low which suggests you are worrying, insecure, emotional, and anxious. Orderliness (43%) moderately low which suggests you are, at times, overly flexible, improvised, and fun seeking at the expense of reliability, work ethic, and long term accomplishment. Extraversion (63%) moderately high which suggests you are, at times, overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.

Take Free Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com

Ooo.. My real birth-month? 0.o

Your True Birth Month Is February

Sharp Ambitious Spendthrift Loves reality Loves freedom Temperamental Low self esteem Honest and loyal Abstract thoughts Daring and stubborn Changing personality Showing anger easily Intelligent and clever Loves aggressiveness Quiet, shy and humble Learns to show emotions Rebellious when restricted Determined to reach goals Superstitious and ludicrous Dislikes unnecessary things Realizing dreams and hopes Too sensitive and easily hurt Loves entertainment and leisure Romantic on the inside not outside Loves making friends but rarely shows it

What's Your True Birth Month? Feeling a bit weird. Haha.

Is cat that responsive, or just stupid?

Here is a link to a very manipulative show, where they found out what cat would do if its stucked. My language is not that good and if you think I'm wrong, please post me a comment. http://files.i611.com/314159265358979/video/funny/StupidCat.wmv

Bus fare got up T.T

Omg, bus fare got up! Seet.. Today my college has its orientation for new student intake, which means my junior, n that made me a senior ^.^ I wore a bit extream today, yet i felt great. Following the routine like i used to stick with, being called up by sis, booming me up wif my mp3 player n my sonic gear tatoo 330, bath, dress n impress self with mirror. After an unusually prepared milo (i usually lazy to prepared), i went off to ktm, then got on bus.

Permata kiara 170, i got on the usually nicely air conditioned bus with radio on-air. Opps. I saw price gone up. The rm1.20 i prepared isn't enough already. T.T It's rm1.50! T.T

T.T Couldn't help being sad. Luckily i prepared extra jz in case. Strange things do happen one shot. The bus i got on stopped half way, where only two passenger were on it. Me n another guy. The driver halt a less conditioned 191 n v got on. Still sad about the 30cent raise. T.T mom, i'm going to ask for more allowance liao. Don't blame me. Blame the bus company.

PS: The bus fare has gone up since 1st of May, if I'm not mistaken, same zone ticket goes up 20 cents, cross 1 zone ticket goes up 30 cents and cross 2 zon ticket goes up 40 cents. Just bring more coins when you take bus. Why the bus fare got up? Damn the petrol raise.

TARC Students please take note

Rumours about TARC's certificates is not accredited by any government body is not true. I have consulted with one of TARC's lecturer. He says tat TARC is considered as IPTA. LAN is the body appointed to accredit IPTS (Private Higher Learing Institution) such as Help, Taylor, etc. So, TARC are same level as UM/UKM/other government higher learning institution. Certs for these institution are accreditted by MOHE (Ministry of Higher Education). Therefore, do not suspect TARC's efficiency.

All the Best and Good Luck to all TARC students!!

Do pass this message around.

Pics with Jien

If you are Malaysian or Singaporean you should know Soo Kui Jien right? During the last day of Malaysian Idol (should be, or the next day), Jien walked around Times Square, and my friend Alex no.2 spotted him. So, he quickly ask Jien to take a picture with him. OMG. I wish I'm there.

Strange Dream about Julienne

I have a pal, Julienne, She has been busy since March of this year, and did not actually have a good chat with her. Strangely enough, I don't know why I dreamt of her. Haven't kept in touch with her for I think about 2 months. I wonder how is she now. I learnt a way to record dream is to put a notepad or recorder around you when you sleep. Once you got up, jot down every details fresh in your memory. Else, the dream will go off. So, if you are interested, you can give it a try. How knows you can save someone from trouble? About the dream, it goes this:

I remembered it was at my ex-school's back door, attending Physical Education classes (Pendidikan Jasmani). Julienne drove in and parked, look for my teacher, or some teacher near by. She was an admin member of the school, I felt it was Pn. Aw. She asked for some permission to do something, and then went off. If I am not mistaken, I was at Form 5 that time, cause I saw my classmates.

Then, at another plot, another time, Julienne asked me to go out, to some accident scene. I didn't go. Then, I don't know how I got on her car, her Kancil was a bit out of shape, as if it has been in accident. She was fetching me and some other people to some place, or some special occasion. I heard about the crash news, I was shocked and ran home. Later, Julienne called, asked me whether I want to go to her mother's friend's birthday party. Then, I woke up.

Strange right? I wonder is there any dream reader out there. If you are reading this, can you please decode the dream and tell me any hint hidden in it in the comment? Thanks a lot. In the end, I was worried about Julienne, I smsed her and told her about this, she replied: "Choi! Choi!". To those who knows chinese should know this right? For those who don't, it is similar to "Touch-wood". So, we replied some smses, she said she was ok, and we told each other to take care.

without teachers, who are we?

Accidentally saw a Teachers Day advertisement on TV. OMG.. damn touching.. the school was at a rural area, where electrical supplies are fuel base.. by the mean time it was raining heavily and the electricity tripped.. the male malay teacher went out the rain n check the electricity box, and found out that no fuel liao.. went and add, and then went to classroom.. meanwhile, the children was wanderin y there's no electricity. the scene was a classroom wif projector n laptop facility. (most of the classrooms are installed wif these facilities nowadays) they were tryin to run sumthing on the pc. after the teacher add fuel, the electricity came alive, and went bek to class wet. d monitor and all student stood n greeted "terima kasih cikgu", n then they show over the projector an image saying "happy teachers day" wif small children.. so sweet... u know wat the ending quote is?

tanpa cikgu, siapalah kami?

yea.. without teachers, who are we?

1st day of home w/o parents bangkok version

Oo.. Parents go holiday~! Great~!! I have the car to myself, can drive anywhere~!! kekeke.. so fun~!! Hmm.. so.. today Joshi was suppose to come at 10am, coz v r on something. I had then actually invited vincent over for lunch. Owell, din want, but i lost a bet, so hv 2 do so.. T.T luckily joshi agreed to pay half, hopefully... so, as i was waiting listenin to classic songs "hw deep is ur love, reunited" (like an old classic man) , i called him. he was still in bed at 9.30am, omg.. i did remind him to sleep early last nite.. c? haiz.. kenot save liao.. dissappointed.. mm.. so.. he arrived at around 12. vincent was a bit obnoxious.. he came n st8 go to my pc and take it as its own.. OMG.. haiz.. another kenot save 1.. sad.. hehe.. vincent n joshi dun mad a.. ^.^ n then ok.. drive to makan~!! go THE CURVE.. Yeah! Upon enterin the curve.. WHOA. Dam BIG. joshi n vincent sed it's like spore style.. i was like.. okaay.. but it's really big n wonderful.. so.. v walked around the food section.. so MANY nice places to eat.. there is a restaurant like western wet market style, where u buy the food and sit down eat, full of western style.. heard fom vince n joshi tat there r quite a lot these restaurants in spore.. oo.. seem like the curve wanna impliment metropolitant style like spore.. mm. good.. ah.. by the way, the restaurant is called Mövenpick Marché Restaurant if i'm not mistaken, jz right beside starbucks. but v din eat in tat restaurant coz i scared expensive, so v went to another restarant, Caffé 1920 (The Curve 1st floor, take the elevator beside TGI Fridays), eat pasta n lasagna ^.^ mm.. quite nice, but the lasagna wasn't well prepared , the cheese was hot but the meat was cold. T.T after i eat half i onli complain.. shit.. they reheat it. n gave me discount and free pastry. ^.^ hehehe... great meal indeed.

These pics r taken by vince w/o my approval... ^^ The pizza Vince eat, "Diacola", RM 14.50 One slice of the pizza My lasagna, Caffé 1920's special made - "Timballo", RM 16.00, and some pastry. The Pepsi vince drink. RM 3.50

then i drive vince bek, stray around in his house, then go home.. after tat, i send joshi to ktm. so.. today's 1st experience..

• 1st time drive to The Curve
• 1st time go The Curve
• 1st time go out with Vincent
• 1st time drive through toll
• 1st time belanja makan more than RM50
• 1st time drive so far
• 1st time fill petrol
• 1st time got so many 1st time happened in one day ^.^

Funny, mom n dad, holiday ~ ^.^

Hee hee.. wat a funny day... Today my parents are away to Bangkok on a "lovey-dovey" holiday. Awell, the funny part is actually the moment when i woke up. Not that they r doin anything funny while i do, but its I woke them up instead of them waking me. My parents did ask me 2 fetch them to KTM station (for those who knows I can't drive, nw I can, for some special reasons). I set my alarm clock, phone alarm actually on 6am call. I actually expected lights on when I 1st open my eye. To my shock, total blackout. Hmm, must b not up yet. So, I went to their room and wake them. Ooo.. Great, still sleeping soundly. They didn't even notice me open the door.. I even hear my dad snoring. Usually they woke up quite easily.. I wonder y... mayb the air conditioning was too comfortable.. mm.. feel like sleeping under the cold blanket nw.. ^_^ So, i said softly at the door, "hey, It's 6 o'clock liao!" Surprisingly both of them woke at the same moment.. oo.. while they was preparing, my dad was smiling all alone.. when was waiting for mom to get ready, v sat in the living room. them my mom came ask him y he smiling all alone.. he sed, this is the 1st time I woke them up.. =.= 1st time? no way.. then i argued, for 19yrs living under ur roof i've never woke u up before? o.0 Well, i fetch them there (KTM la, bukan KLIA) and bid gd bye and smooth sailing.. when i was fetching them there, mom kept reminding me about taking care bout my lil bro n sis.. mmm.. pls la.. holiday enjoy la.. i'll take care of everything.. hopefully.

Restarting Blog

Helo everyone, sorry for being out of coverage for so long. Jz nw my lecturer (can b considered a gd pal) ask me about my long forgotted blog (ah well, is just that i lazy to write only). He told me he din visit it long time. I was touched. I thought no one remembers my blog. Another incident, very interesting event. Ema (The one I sed about the indian marriage thingy, refer feb/march 05) needed help on Visual Basic. At the last minutes, i then only realize One of my blog reader, also a very good pal of mine (alex no.2 [there is another alex at previous post]), r quite good in Visual Basic. So, i redirected them. Whoa.. comes out, alex still rememeber i told story about ema and they r like long lost frenz.. ema kept saying good things about alex no.2 in front of me.. whoa.. so sweet... never thought a blog can make such a big difference.. :sob: touching... OK~!! Determined liao~! 1 week must at least hv 1 post.. dun worry.. things r coming.. coz i'm on holiday nw ma. hopefully i can falsh back.. ^_^

~~Bad timing~~

when i was wring this blog on notepad, suddenly my internet got cut off.. my streamyx down~! damn.. coz i delayed paying the bill.. neways, this is my 2nd month using steamyx.. when i started using it.. i got addicted liao.. ^.^ hopefully it recovers soon in the morning.

Yo, peeps!

OMG. It has been damn long time since I ever have time to sit still and write a blog. Time is evil. It tortures me along with lust, laziness, stupidity, and whatsoever torturing. Damn. Only after I read lpshen’s blog I had mood to write one. How can I be so controlled emotionally? Where has your rationality gone? You DAGGER! What does that means anyway? Nah, doesn’t care, as long as it sounds like motherf**ker. (Well, it should sound like IDIOT, but my idiotic language doesn’t come with any word similar to it.) When was my last blog written? O… it’s the wedding! Damn I missed a lot. I now don’t feel like writing my dairy as blog. It feels so stupid to actually have people, esp strangers reading your diary. What an imbecile. (Oh, never realise there is another word. It was from Garfield the movie, that’s what Garfield called Odie, the imbecile dog.) I had actually captured tonnes of pictures on my candy bar, Nokia 3200 [Well, not tonnes actually, it can’t even store more than 100 pictures.]. I had even actually written something on my mobile phone! Well, lemme see what I’ve written. {I’m on a ‘business trip’ 2 Nilai with my dad. I’m on holiday n it’s after cny, n I’m damn free at house n grounded. No choice but to follow. He woke me up at 8 in d morning n we went on journey at 830. I’ve only slept for 4 hrs. He drove Naza Ria (Kia Carnival) out n it’s auto. He was a manual guy. So, I can’t stand him driving auto. I’d always see the engine meter reach 3.5/4 before dropping down. (naza change gear usually at 2.5/3) Nor wonder he’s complaining d fuel goes like drinking water. As I know, it uses a quad-cam 24 valves engine. Well, accelerating is definitely like drinking water. But if It goes long distant, it’s like riding on a cloud. BREEZY. Getting a Naza was not a bad idea after all, as all of us got to enjoy the umph of the car. Kekeke. Sadly, the car is not us, is the company’s. My dad was about to solve some problem regarding the electricity bill of his house for rent there. The bill was at extremely high price and the rentee did not use that much, and the meter was way lower then the number jotted there. He bumps into the TNB office and told the officer to change the bill. But the officer gave reason stating that the meter reader couldn’t see the reading on the meter. My dad then tells him, “I’m a carpenter, I’ll bring my hammer and my nail and all the tools to fix your house. He is a meter reader, shouldn’t he brings a binocular to read my meter? It is outside the house! Approximation? Does that mean your meter reader is taking the wages without doing his job? If he doesn’t want to do it, dozens of people out there want the job!” The officer went speechless immediately and changes the bill. Wow. What a great dad. He then talks about so many things about customer services and other stuff while we are on the way home. You know what? I think he kinda look like Simon Cowell! Hahaha!!}

My first trip to an Indian-style marriage

After Steve got me to the monorail, Stephanie called me. She told me that Ema’s sis wedding ceremony will on tonight! Why she didn’t tell me earlier? Luckily my parents allowed me to go despite I was out this noon. My sis followed me, as Steph came fetch us there. We were an hour late while we were there. The temple looked nice, the ceremony looked nice. The lights, the decors, the clothes, the crowds, the newly-weds and the heat. As you know Indians light up lots of stuff and wear so many Jasmine flowers (I think it is Jasmine). The air was stuffy and no fan for the newly-weds. The bride was sweating like she just had a bath! All her mates were wiping sweat off until they ran out of tissues! Steph and Ema were my ex-colleague while I was working as an assistant at my ex-secondary school computer lab. Steph is my pet sister too! Taking about Ema, she looked damn great that night! Here is Steph and Ema. Somebody walked around with some yellow rice grains. People took it, and I was wondering why. Nearly the end of the ceremony, not knowing what happened, after the newly-weds exchanged their Jasmine flower necklace, everybody threw the yellow rice at them. I guess it is just like the Christian’s marriage. Then, the dinner was served. It wasn’t like Chinese, where they wait for all people to sit and send up the food. It was an Indian vegetarian buffet. I like Indian food actually, and the meal was great! Especially the rice – Nasi Briyani! I’m thinking, maybe I’ll have an Indian style wedding ceremony too! Haha! The bears in front of the wedding car. So nice~

Day after the hair cut

Haiz… The hairstyle I got was supposed to be shown in a good way, but the foolish me was unable to get it right! Was I missing the correct the ingredient (wax/clay/spray) or I’m not born to be a hair stylist? Well, I guess I’m both. :’( Today I went out with Alex to Sungei Wang that area. I wasn’t in mood to go out tat day actually, he persuaded me – by saying Steve was out with them too. O… It’s Steve, the Mr. Nice Portuguese-Chinese Guy whom I met last swimming session with Alex. After talking to him, it was nice. Well, I’d like talk to him more often, coz he is really a guy with something in him. So, I went out with them. I bath and tried to get my hair look like yesterday. However, my genes failed me. Never mind, it’s ok. I’ll just look like a young innocent guy. So, as on the journey, the driver (Alex) was to pick up another person. So I thought, the car was already filled with 4 persons, Alex, Alvin, Chris and me, who else will get on board? I heard Alex said ‘Ray’. Hmm… familiar name. Do I know him? I don’t know. Anyway, another new friend for today I guess. To my surprise, it was my old friend (He changed his nickname). So, we both were surprised. So, we went chattering all the way to our destination, while all the other 3 was in silent mode. We’re supposed to meet Steve and another guy (I forgot his name) at Lot 10 food court, while we have our 4pm lunch there. One thing I saw interesting was that 2 girls was sitting at a table held a binocular each. I was wondering what they were trying to peek. As I turn around, I saw a table of young cute guys. OMG, nowadays girls are so daring. I planned to go Times Square and go for arcade, so I asked them whether they want to join. I need to be at home at 7pm, so if they are not to follow, I’ll go there myself. As Alex knew I am prone to play the dancing machine, he asked them to follow me. It was raining. I suggest running there, but Steve do not want that. I was wondering why. It’s like he has applied makeup and do not wanna get them wet. So, we got on for monorail. The queue was damn long! Lucky the guys were smart and got the ticket early. So we proceeded. After I finished my tokens, it was time for me to leave. Steve asked to accompany me. Why not? So we chattered to monorail station. He then told me, I danced good – amongst the people he knew. Great! I’m happy anyway.