AMD1

Proud to say that I am in AMD1!!! Not Advance Micro Devices, but Advance Diploma in Microelectronics in Computer Communication Year 1. (If you read my previous post, I am a AMD user, and proud to be one) Advance year. What should I say about it. This is already the forth week and ten more weeks to go for exam, and I am stuck in the middle of nowhere. The subjects I am having this semester is: ASIC (Application-specific Intergrated Circuit) Design I >> Ms Ng Swee Chin, Mr Ang Boon Kiat Electricity & Magnetism >> Mr Chong Nyok Kian Advance Engineering Maths III >> Mr Wong KY, Mr Teo Internet Programming >> Ms Lee PS Pendidikan Moral >> Ms Gan Siew Cu Let me talk about them one by one. ASIC Design This subject teaches us how to use a hierachical approach to design an application-specific integrated circuit. For example, our mobile phone. We devide them into subsystems and then we partition them again into smaller subsystems until we can represent them in circuits, or any other conceptual methods such as K-map, Truth Tables, State Diagrams etc. > I think Ms Ng really did a good job in teaching us digital logics and how this ASIC functions. She teaches better than any other lecturers. I will attend all her classes. Her classes are not to be missed. For Mr Ang, he is just a practical tutor, as ever playful. Electricity and Magnetism This is a hardcore physics subject. Totally theory. Includes a lot of vectors, and all previous basic physics equations, which I have forgotten all of them. > Mr Chong does a much better job than Mr Lim LS, where he show us the picture of physics. But he is damn slow in teaching. Puts me to sleep. Lullaby rating: So-so. Advance Engineering Maths III I liked maths actually. But I dislike integration and trigonometry, especially when they are combined together. The topics this semesters are all integrations and trigonometries. Come along with vectors, matrices etc. > Mr Wong KY teaches vectors for now, will be teaching matrices as well. Note: all includes with integration. He has the deepest voice among all lecturers who had taught us and no doubt his lulluby rating is Excellent! > Mr Teo however teaches Fourier Series which relates with periods and again contains a lot of integrations, sines and cosines. Do you know what's the worst part? By-parts integration. His voice is damn deep as well, but he can't fight with Mr Wong. Lulluby Rating: Good. Internet Programming Talks about ASP.net. A new server-side technology which works on Microsoft .NET framework. We are learning it using C# programming language. Good lesson plans, good lesson materials. Good job to Computer Science Division. > No comment on Ms Lee. Nice lecturer. Typical. But something amazing about the lab. One of the lab we go to has a internal forum and file sharing network! I was so surprised! It is done by the lab assistants in the lab. Damn cool! I'll bring my portable HDD and download all of them! Hehe. Btw, it is lab D103. Pendidikan Moral Yesh, I still need to attend Moral Education. It talks about all the theories rather than the moral values and teaches us to evaluate different situations with different moral theories and point of view. My assignment is about war, and I am so blur about it. > Ms Gan has a very strong and high-pitched voice. She differs from other lecturer, thats why I don't really sleep in her class. Haha. Lulluby Rating: Bad. There is just one small little thing which I don't really like. Today is the 2nd time a lecturer ask me whether did I watch too much football thats why I am so blur and slept in class. FIFA World Cup huh... Aih. The reason is because I was sleep deprived, and their class is slow and boring. Btw, I am the course representative now, and I would have to really discipline myself so that I do not embarassed my course AMD1. Introducing my fellow coursemates. Goh Kee Ming as Assistant Course Rept, Lee Li Khim as Tresurer, Lum Chan Fai as Photostat Manager, and Ng Tian Soo as Sports Representative. Thats all, 5 person in a course. Cool huh? My plan now, is to really got to complete all my tutorials and assignments on time and not to rush like what I did last time...

The refurbished KTM

I was on my way home from college on Monday as usual, taking KTM to Kepong from the KL Sentral Station. In a short wait, the train arrived. It was the oldest model of train KTMB is still using to commute the passanger. To my surprise, it was refurbished. The old model which looks like a long distance passanger train was modified and it looked so COOL! They removed two rows of seats closest to the door and removed the barrier as well! A quite futuristic look I must say. This model of train used to be the most dreaded model of train especially during rush hours because it will be damn full of people and those standing near the door will be stuffed dead coz too much people, heat, stuffiness and suffocation. Good news to all those commuters who take KTM during rush hour. And WELL DONE to KTMB. But then when I was taking the KTM on Tuesday, 20.06.2006 (Yes, the special date. Whoa! So many special dates this year. Congratz to PJ coz recognised as a CITY!) the old model train was not furbished. I guess maybe they have not implement this concept on all the train. Seriously when I got on the refurbished train, it feels like a new train where I can smell the scent of new and/or renovated thingies. it was a great time on the train. Another thing I discovered was, there was a lot of announcement today. And this I must really say that the announcer of KTM is much better than announcer of the Star LRT. I can't even make out any word from the announcer especially on the Star LRT cabin! I always liked the voice of the KL Sentral announcer. His voice is good. Crisp and clear. Good command of Bahasa Melayu and English. But then, the announcement today occurs because there was a delay on certain train, if I am not mistaken it was the train to Seremban and I saw there was a huge crowd of people waiting to get on the train. Poor people. KTMB, you really need to pay attention on your operations as there are more commuters everyday because of the fuel price. Improve your services and make a great difference to our lives! Btw, there is a new destination added by KTMB. Kepong Sentral! Not sure what is the use anyway. Try it dudez.

Getting on track - the Theatre

Hey peeps.. Just a few words here before I go off to bed. And especially Jennie, I will have to write the post later. I am now working as a crew of a children theatre show for 1 week, which is from 20th May till 28th May. Okay, 1 week plus. I will be working from morning till late night for 1 whole week. Well, just want to express my happiness towards this job my friend Kino has introed me. This is because I have always wanted to get into this line. Although it is quite tough being in this kinda position, but I am happy, because I am contributing to the performing arts. I have met lots of great people who has quite some fame in Malaysia's Performing Art line, they are usually more known in the Chinese areas ^^;; Here by I attach with its brouchers. Here it is! Come see yea!!! It is really nice!!! It will surely reminds you back to your childhood. ^^ Hope to see you there! I'll feedback about the getting on track part after I'm free from the show. Stay surfing and stay LUCKY!!

About Jennie & DMI 05/06

She is my best-est friend in my 2 year diploma life. Hmm... This does not really start off a good story huh? Haha... Jennie, I know u are reading this. I shall recall back to last two years, when we first met. And it was in college of course. Jennie Ho Tze Hui, she was appointed to be DMI's course representative. Wise choice I shall say. And I could still remember the fellow coursemates were planning to appoint me to be the assistant, but they got the wrong name instead. Haha~ But I was still glad I wasn't appointed, that is only after awhile (you know what I mean). FYI, Tunku Abdul Rahman College is 3 semester based, where 1st and 2nd semester is 17 weeks, and 3rd semester is 10 weeks. When I was in my 1st year 1st and 2nd semester, I was a lil 'sombong', coz, erm, I find the subjects quite easy, thus, was hated by some people. Now, let me go by time chronology. *I shall continue again soon*

Stacking tasks

Friday, May 19, 2006 - 4:14am As usual, I'm geting ready to sleep after talking to my dear. I started to think, throughout this semester break, so called holiday, what have I done, did I do anything useful, did I do anything which will help me? Or shall I say, did I do anything I planned for myself for the semester break? Things started to come on my mind. My holiday is ending soon, in just a week plus. I shouldn't be fear of not being able to finish my 'duty'. But next week I planned to work at a stage performance... I quickly reviewed what I have not done in my task list. Bloggie > New layout 4 bloggie, photot album and etc. PC > organise music and files, editors etc. Learn dance steps Out of suddent I feel like blogging now... I have so much to write about! You must be wandring what I have been doing recently. I have been sleeping at 4am, waking up at 1pm, not doing any chores, sat in front of the PC like no one's business for past few weeks... Damn my life is messed up. I can feel myself getting weaker compared to those days... and again I want to remind myself, SLEEP AT 2AM AND WAKE UP AT 9AM for the rest of the holidays!!!

Computer Frenzy

Okie, frenzies again. Haha... As you might already know, please read previous entriez if you don't, I am on holz now. And again, BON VACANCES to mua! My computer was at a disasterous state, after it was struck by the damn lightning 3 months ago, which is still on now and causing havoc everywhere; I put them into random pieces when I got a new desktop. Mind you, my lappie got stuck too, and it needs f*ckin 1.3k to fix it. My new desktop spec: AMD Athlon(r) 64-bit 3200++ nVidia GeForce 6200 TurboCache(tm) (PCI-E) Samsung SyncMaster 793DF (17" Flat Screen) 1GB RAM DVD+CDRW Combo 200GB Western Digital (new) + 80GB WD (old) HP PSC 1410 All-in-One Automatic Voltage Regulator To all, please get an AVR if you don't have. It will lenghten the life of your PC, and acts as a powerful surge protector. It is only around 0.07k. When I try to install winXP to the new desktop, I made a simple mistake. The windows was installed in the 200GB drive, but then the drive letter is G:/. Know what is the mistake? It was because I have the old 80GB drive mounted when I was installing and the 80GB took C:/, D:/, and E:/ while my DVD+CDRW combo took F:/. So, I hv spent like, 2 months surviving with G:/ as the windows drive. I feel damn beh syok with this adi ler... Since it is my holz now, I shall rearrange all my things and make things right! Things I did for my desktop: Formatted winXP Installed new theme from CrystalXP.net Installed MSN Plus! Installed Avant Browser Installed J River Media Center Installed K-Lite Codec Pack That is for the winXP. I ventured in Linux too. Going open source.. XD Bought a DVD from Kent, SuSe Linux Enterprise Server v9. I tried to install it. It was useless. Searched the net for new distro (a jargon which means Linux dristibution) from http://www.linux.org/ Tried Gentoo (http://www.gentoo.org/), but then it was tough to install because it is command line based. I then try Mandriva 10.2 (http://www.mandriva.com/), surpricingly it has a really user friendly installation interface! I chose some packages I find interesting and installed. Using KDE, Gnome and IceWM if not mistaken. All installation went on quite well, just that, it could not detect my LAN and Sound driver!!! I was like, dang. I spent about 20 hours on this linux thingy, including getting the driver done. What I did to get the driver: Went to KDE > Harddrake and try to manually load the driver. Failed. Searched my motherboard manufacturer (Biostar) for linux driver Directed to chipset manufacturer (nVidia) Downloaded driver for nForce (motherboard chipset) Went in Linux and try to install Tried in KDE, was unable to do so. Tried in Gnome, the setup ran. But it didn't install, is says kernal source undetermined. Looked in uninstalled packages for kernal source, failed on 1st few attempt. Looked though the forums. Found nothing helpful. Try to locate kernal source again. Found. Try to install the driver. Done. (at this point, I was like, YESH!!!) Read the release note for the installation details. Followed and it worked fine. And I can finally online at Linux and listens to sounds. (KDE's system sounds are DAMN COOL!) The reason I wanna try Linux is that I wanna utilise my 64-bit processor, besides the fact that I'm a 1st time Linux user. As you know, or might not, winXP is 32-bit, except for winXP 64-bit. I was told you can't do many things in winXP 64-bit. I didn't install it. And I used Linux instead. I ran some game provided by Mandriva 10.2, some 3D game, and it was very laggy. I was surprised. I thought it will work better than 32-bit environment. I was wrong I guess. Or maybe I should try to downlaod some 3D 64-bit game for Linux. Doom3 is an example I found online, which is always used to test the performance. I will keep updating about the Linux and some computer things I found useful. Stay bookmarked. p/s: I have spent few night staying awake till 4/5am... to work on this, and you-know-what. I think I should start to get back to sleeping at 1/2am, soon...

Happie Holiday!

Bon Vacances! That is, erm, should be the french for HAPPIE HOLIDAY! After my finals on, erm, forgot when.. should be the end of april, I am considered a GRADUATE, from my diploma, thou. Spent the final karaoke session in diploma year with Jennie straight after our last paper. It was fun. I'll sure to miss you, Jennie. Few days after that, it was labour day. Don't ask. I was at home and did not go anywhere, practically. Went on shopping with my dear at night, in preparation to camerons! Been on camerons with my dear and another couple. It was nice. The weather is nice. Strawberry Park is nice. The suite we got is nice. The room is nice. The time spent together is nice. Enjoying like its our home, feels damn great! Just one thing. I didn't managed to load much strawberries, especially strawberry jam! And tea, etc... Lesson got from cameron trip: > Japanese Instant Bowl Noodle is DAMN NICE!!! > Remember to load lotsa strawberries if you like! > A really good place for photo people and green people (I'm both, but I don't do them that often) > Cheese-stuffed hotdog is DAMN NICE!!! > Mahjong is a very very interesting game! (Ah kong teached us how to play, basic ones thou) > Driving on hill needs auto gear 2, rather than D, to prevent brake burn, but uses more petrol > Rest areas on North South Highway is very hi class adi. > Balanced meal is VERY important. After this, I have like, 3 more weeks of holz to go... Want to spend it wisely! XD hopefully..

"Fun and Facts" competition - What is 'in' and 'out'?

"Hey Kent! It has been long! How are you? Oh, I heard you went for audition for the talent quest. Did you get in?" I said. "Hey, yup, it has been long. Wow, you do receives news don't you? Sad to say, I did not get IN." 'In' is used to describe a situation where you are selected for some events here, or most correctly refering to a position where you are doing or being in something. For example, "Aiks! But then I have heard your voice, it is quite good! I still remember last time when you perform on stage, and that time you were in a very cool outfit. With your guitars and voice, all of the audience immersed in you show! You were like a star!" As you can see, 'in' is also used to describe when you are being in a cool outfit, and got in the show. Kent replied humbly, "Naw, I ain't that good. They were a lot more talents out there and you have not seen it." 'Out' however is the opposite of 'in', where it means to look at a broader horizon, for example 'out there'. "Don't worry too much, I'm sure there is someone out there who will appreaciate your talent. By the way, do you want to hang out some other days? I would love to go out with you!" "Gee thanks! I need some time out as well." Kent answered with enthusiasm. 'Out' is also used to describe a situation where you want to enjoy the day and have fun at a mall or some places of interest by going out and hanging out. It is also used to describe a feeling of relaxation by having a time out.

I lost my phone... Poor Eichi-kun

Name Eichi-kun Age Just celebrated its 2 year 'buy'-day Model Nokia 3200 How it happened It was my 1st paper of my final semester in my Diploma study. It was an exam on 'Advance Engineering Maths 2'. It is about statistics and discrete maths. As all examinations does now, they do not allow students to carry their mobile phone and/or communication devices into the examination hall. In TAR College, we would have to leave it outside the examination hall. What we, the students, usually does it try to hide the phone inside the bag, or just leave the phone at home. As for my case, I would prefer to bring along my phone because I stay quite far from college. It would take me almost an hour to take public to college. Before preparing to get into the examination hall, I kinda took my phone out and checked whether I have any missed call or messages. Then, I put it in my bag, and in the hidden compartment. FYI, in celebration of Eichi-kun's 2-year-old, I change his outfit. It was way cooler than the old outfit. Then, I zip my bag, place it nicely on the floor with my fren's bag on top of mine. Then into the examination hall I go. I have noticed some environmental difference: all the windows in the examination room (I had my exam in classrooms) are covered with papers so sun doesn't shine through. After my exam, I did not get out of the exam room that early. I was taking my own sweet time. By the time I was out, Jaimie, one of my classmates asked me, why my bag was wide open? I was like, HUH? Then when I get closer to see my bag, I knew. My phone was stolen. My another classmate's phone was stolen also. It was a Nokia 7610 if not mistaken. Why only 2 of us? I think back, I think its because the thief saw I put my phone in my bag. Well, thats a pretty expensive lesson... My poor Eichi-kun... I have been with him for two years plus... I used my hard-earned money to buy him... I miss him so much!! I actually kinda wanted back all my messages and contacts, AND MY PHONE STRAP!! (coz it was a couple phone strap I had with my dear) ... if possible... I am a lil scared that all my personal stuffz are exposed. Ah well, too late now. Fairwell Eichikun. I hope you'll find a better master. And I hope you will live a much better life than with me. I'll miss you. T_T

Gary Fever!

Liking or hating?

Again hear me rant about my college. Erm, is it again? Well, nevermind. Just read and be glad that I am writing this down. Went over to college today, as usual. Feeling bored, as usual. The bus is waiting at Genting Klang to get it full before moving its big fat ass to college which makes me late, as usual. But I was not sleeping in the bus, not as usual. Surpricingly, the day went quite well today. First lesson was practical on Basic Microprocessors. CKN was our tutor. She is kinda new to this subject and, well, sometimes she seek student for answer. Cool huh? Today we were doing an experiment on PIA (Peripheral Interface Adapter), and we need to do something with the interupt. I think I got my program right and my circuit right, but then, it did not work. She was refering to another lecturer who was more experienced, the one who told us why dinosaurs extinct (read back to last year's post), CKK. While he was explaining, she did not understand some part of the explaination. After that, she raised her hand and ask questions. Aww! Isn't that cute?! I am so glad that I had her as my teacher! (Psst, tell you something. CKN and us, the class, we will kaypo about everything during class!) About CKK, well, I am starting to like him I think. Erm, to be honest, I have created quite a bad record for myself. I falls asleep in every lecture. EVERY lecture. Yes, I know. It is cracky. CCK was among those who first complaints about this comfy session I am having. It is not that comfy anyway. Following by all the other ME lecturers... (ME stands for Microelectronics, the course I am taking) Which is one of the reason why I do not really want to stay back at TARC to do my advance diploma. Was talking to Jennie about this. Well, almost all the time we talk about this. And she keeps 'zah' me also. I guess she just knows me too well. I was like asking her, what should I choose after my diploma year, either AdvDip or Utar. She has been asking me to apply for Utar as a precaution and additional option. Hence we move forward to buy the application form from the Admin. "I'm sorry, sold out" was what I got from them. Jennie and I was like WTF?? Utar so 'laku' ahh? The day turned even better after I started listening to my MP3 player with some new songs I got, which I downloaded in before I sleep last night, at 2.30am. Was sharing the songs with Jennie. Wow! There has been sooooooo long since we have ever listened to MP3s during classes. It was much brighter! The day was much brighter! Hmm, I guess I should keep it a habit huh? On the way back, Jennie asked me one thing. She asked, any reason why I do not want to stay for AdvDip. I couldn't give any specific. It was mainly the environment problem. The lecturers, the surroundings, and I think my future coursemates are gonna be only 3 or 4 person. Can I get through that? I don't mind studying, I told her, and myself. I guess I'll just study and get my Degree of John Moores University at Liverpool, UK. Hmm, since I have decided, I guess I should talk to my parents soon. Coz doing over to Liverpool requires at least RM 20k, and Jennie argued RM 30k. Ahh.. Whatever! As long as I got to study there, and do some sightseeing before coming back here. At least I was soaked in the salty water, as the chinese saying goes. =p

Rant #02 - Grumpy day

Continuing the sleepless frenzy, I slept at 5am. Then I woke up at 7++am. Got a morning call from my dear. Thx dear, you are so sweet! Then I go get ready, called up my friend to pick me up, and ate breakfast - Nasi Lemak! Aww, I was scared that my friend will arrive early, I rushed the breakfast in. I was feeling full then... I guess it was the alcohol chocolate I ate last night, I was feeling hyper in the morning. Well, probably I just faked it to hide the fact that I have only been sleeping for 2 hours. The effect slowly wear off when I got the hard truth about the day, there was a test on Basic Microprocessor and it was totally off my mind! I quickly finish my part in for the practical in the morning, and then I utilise the following half an hour time to read up a little before the test commence. When I was in the class for the test, CCK (the lecturer) was teaching new topics and mentioned that this is already the 2nd last week of the last semester in my diploma year. I can't believe I have been sleeping through all the diploma year. Yesh, I am a pig in class. People see my disregard because I sleep in their class. Oh well, I do feel suckish about that too okay FYI? Before and during the test, I sensed that CCK kept 'zah' me. I was really frustrated by his annoying act and ... ARGH!! I just hate it. I didn't managed to finish my test, but I managed to do most of them anyway. Lucky I read before the test. Meanwhile the lecture and the test, I was feeling damn sleepy, effects wear off. Besides the CCK 'zah' me thingy, I was feeling suckish about that. Lunch time. It was ... okie. But then, I couldn't tahan not sleeping already. The later class, it was a maths tutorial, a replacement class. I really did not give face to the lecturer and I slept through the whole tutorial. I know I suck. Thank you. Now, I still feel suckish why I couldn't choose where to go after my diploma, either advance or UTAR. Really sad. Moreover, things between me and my parents aren't going that well. Want to share this with them, but then ... I'm afraid. Know why? Because I don't know whether will I still have mood to continue studying. I mentioned this to my mum. She was like, you want to study, meh? Of course she didn't just make the assumption that I do not want to study. She can see through my sleepless frenzy, and my previous outing frenzy. Frenzy frenzy frenzy. I'm really looking forward to the Cameron trip with dear, Joa and Ah Kong. Really want to feel the holiday spirit again.

Night Ghost

Damn the sleepless frenzy. I have been sleeping at 4/5 am recently. Dang. Why?? Reason #1 - The computer. I have stuck on the computer since I got it back. FYI, I lost my lappie and desktop to the thunder storm and I had live without computer for almost 2 weeks. Reason #2 - Waiting for someone special. This has been a habit ever since then. Reason #3 - The computer. Again. What I have been doing online:-

• Check mail - but then most of them aren't necessary.
• Chat
• Blog - rarely thou.
• Download things
• Porn

Sick right? I am sure most of you do the same. Now, don't complain and shout out at my beloveds ShoutBox. =p

Attraction, Distraction - Added feature!!

News on Attraction, Distraction. The owner of this blog has added some feature in the blog. He has added some of his friends' blog links and added a ShoutBox from Oggix.com. So, call all the peeps out there VISIT da blog!! Life is about sharing right? Hmm.. feeling extra like sharing things now. =D Kiss da ass!! XD Don't forget to shout yea! *hugz to those who shout!*

Rant #01 - Dumbo world, perfect world

Suddenly I feel like I'm living in a dumbo world. Why does things must happen? Does it really mean to teach us lessons? Sometimes I wish life is like, what I wanted. The perfect world for me to live in. But then, this is kinda impossible to achieve. Is it really possible to build the perfect world for muaself? Have you ever heard, to make things simple, there must be a really complex base. Taking example of the Operating System we are using. Windows XP and Mac OS X. Both of this OS is very user friendly. But if you try to see the programming codes for these OSs, you'll go blind. Just the amount of programmer researching the way to program these OS are large. See, so many people and experiences, the end result is a very simple, easy to use, friendly OS. So, does that mean, for me to have my perfect world, I will have to make things complicated and put a lot of effort in it? I guess you might say, JUST BLEND IN!!! Blend in? No way! There is so many things I can't stand! There is so many things I want to do instead of blending in! Well, even IF I wanted to blend in, NO WAY I'm blending in the situations I am currently at. It SUX! I hope I have done ranting and am feeling better. To all those if you want to know why am I ranting about this, read the previous posts. You might get a hint.

Confusion in life.. Take it or leave it?

I would first like to say a BIG BIG SOWIEEEEEEE for not updating my this tiny little chapters of my life for a very very loooooooong time. SOWIE!! Btw, thanks for all the peeps out there who DO actually visit my page to check whether is my bloggiez updated. THANKIEZZZ!! Big hugz to all of you!! Have been through a LOT. I mean like... A LOT. I traveled to Hatyai and Hong Kong after my exams period. Then, I was kinda in my 'winter phase' of my year, where my biggest depression period are. Yesh depression. All sorts of depression come. Love life, financial, COMPUTER PROBLEM, choices to make and etc. Anyway, all these depressions are about to be over I guess, because I finally... FINALLY, get to sit still and determined to write a new bloggiez entry!! Now, lets talk about why I wasn't determined to write my blog. I was feeling confused, and all the sudden, I feel like, the world is ending soon. Thats why I didn't really bother writing. Yeah right you may say. The world is ending. But, how would you explain all the natural disasters and all the you-know-what which kinda kills or contribute to losses? Well, and the most important thing is. I feel less organized already. I used to be a quite organized person. Not to say very. I like to do stuffz last minutes. As the feeling is being busy at the last minute make me feel powerful... A cheh... What a wrong mind set. This kinda habit is known as 'The Procrastinator' as written in 'The 7 Habits of Highly Effective Teens'. (Yes I have been reading it, but then I don't really read all of them. Don't have enough determination to do so.) It says The procastinator is addicted to urgency. He/she likes to put things off and put things off and put things off ... until it becomes a crisis. To those who had worked with me before, you know what I mean. To those who haven't, please just erase off this part of the blog from your memories. Thank you! XD Okie. Here comes the main part of the blog, where it is related to the topic above. The confusion. While I was typing these, it took me like ... 15 minutes to clear off my mind because there was some interrupts.. I think I have kinda forgotten about what I wanna write. Oh kay~ here goes nothing! There is 2 major decision I need to make. First, my educational path which will directly affect my career path, which will also affect my life path. I wanted to do a LOT of stuffz in life. I wanna achieve a LOT of stuffz in life. But then, my educational path doesn't really opens a huge door to what I wanna do in life. It does offers me a good working opportunity, which will surely generate an amount of monthly income. I can use the income to achieve what I want in life, but I hope this can be done. Ahh well, I don't seem to have much choice. Either to continue to persue my degree in what I'm doing now, Microelectronics, at TAR College, or move over to UTAR, taking relevant courses or irrelevant courses but relevant to what I wanna do in life. After reading this, you might wonder why don't I just choose what I wanna do in life? Well, sometimes there are blocks here and there. I actually was thinking to get into Hotel Management, but then my parents was like ... there is no future there. But one of my final goal in the future is related to this! Okay, lets keep this aside. I can still continue that after I have some modals and partners to start this. Management skills can be learnt whenever izzit rite? I would also want to get into PR! Organizing events is like the heavenly job to me. But then, bare with me, I'm afraid to step into this field. I don't have much knowledge in this, but I would always LOVE to be a part of this (which my parents don't really want me to do since my secondary school year). Performing arts. What a great thing to do in life. Yet another thing my parents don't want me to be in. Almost all my goals/dreams are halted because my parents doesn't like it. I hate this. What they want me to do is, keep it all to my computers. (To those who don't know, I'm an IT guy, kinda knows some here and there.) Which kinda refers me back to be a Technical person. Aih... Here goes my 1st confusion. But then, I plan to stick with my original plan, which is to obtain a degree in what I'm doing first. I can always venture into other parts later. The second confusion. The Multi Level Marketing a.k.a. alternate franchising. Have been ushered to join this ... like very long ago adi. Don't know what should I feel about it. Should I join? Or should I just ignore and be normal people? I have heard all sorts of testimonials. Pros and cons. But then again, my parents. They totally objected it, and kinda forced me to not joining it. Well, indeed I agree. I have yet to have the preparation to join and work these things out. I have given all of my MLM choices a thought. I can imagine myself in a good position. But then, now izzen the time for me to start this business yet. NOT READY, financially, emotionally and in terms of freedom. So, my final choice: Do it later when I'm ready, which is few years later. As all things are, there are pros and cons. Cons for the choice of the first confusion: I dun think there will be a very good studying environment, which I'm kinda sick of for the past few semesters. Cons for the choice of the second confusion: I'll earn much lesser by then compared to all my friends... Life is all about choices huh? One reminder, you can choose to live the life you want. And choose to be happy always! ^^

When trouble follows examinations...

Today is my first day of examination for the 5th semester a.k.a. 2nd year 2nd semester in my diploma college life. Paper examined - Advance Engineering Mathematics 1. Before this paper starts, I have encountered with quite some troubles. Well, most of them is because I am careless. Yesh, I'm some careless freako. I shall go back in time. 1 week before the first paper I was damn bored at home. Couldn't really concentrate on studies. Or shall I say, I didn't study at all? Went over to Jennie's on Wed, I think, thought of studying with her, but then end up ordering Domino's online. It was damn nice. Pizza. Ultimate Hawaiian Chicken Pepperoni. RM 26.80. Delivery 10 minutes late. Did not get free pizza voucher. Then ate at Friday's with my dear, shared Shrimp and Half Ribs. It was damn nice too. RM 128. Laze around at home, boring, boring, bored. Did not even try to look at the books. In addition to having cleaning sessions at home, I was not in mood to study. But I had done something great. I finally packed my wardrobe, my desk, and my room. Yesh! At last... The way I wanted. Nice and clean. Yesh, I did clean it. Cleaned all the webbings and dirt which had stayed there for like, 4 years? This is my desk. Amazingly it can be that organized. I didn’t expect it to be that organized. My laptop, then my Sonic Gear Tatoo-330, above the subwoofer is my books then the rack on top of it. At the edge of the table is the current affairs partition, then all the scrap papers are used as my mouse pad, and some other stuffz there. And the pencil holder in front of the subwoofer is holding some useless stuffz. And the magnificent stuff hanging at the edge of the rack is a paper holder, holding whatever interesting. This is my notice board in the room. Not that organized, but it is meant to keep my room less plain. Together with some of my memorable stuffz. Then there is this cupboard underneath the board, which contains stuffz I would hide, and don’t ask. Finally had a collection of my own set of grooming stuffz. Clean & Clear Foaming Facial Wash, Men’s Bioré Facial Foam and Scrub (Sample), Nivea Deodorant (hidden), and the White Musk set from The Body Shop I bought as a Mother’s Day present for my mum. She didn’t use it because she could not stand the smell. And only after HALF A YEAR she is willing enough to pass it down to me. 1 day before the first paper The day before the first paper is a Sunday. Talked to Joshi-kun last night, kind of promised to meet today at the night market. After my dinner with my family, I went out with him. Had a walk in the market. It was jammed with humans. We went off to go for a drink instead, with Ed-chan and Izaac. Went to Green Town and had a drink and some snack. Their Fried Hotdog sucked. Imagine frying hotdog the Chinese way, with onions and chilies. Had a good yum-char time. Happy things do ends. I got traumatized by my dad for reaching home late. When I got the message from my sister saying my dad was angry at me and locked the gate, I was really lost. Joshi-kun then rushed to send me home. After I reached home, I saw the gate was really locked. I called my sister to open the gate for me. Before I get to enter the house, I have to get 1 round of scolding by my mum. There is just one thing. I had to SNEAK into my house. Pathetic. Reason my dad got angry at me – Not home before 12. After I got in the house, I charged my phone. My phone battery died after dinner, so I did not get anything since then. My sister contacted me through Joshi-kun. After I turned on my phone, I got more surprises. My di(Jeremy) told me his bike is stolen. Then some angel contacted me and talked to me about some stuffz regarding reaching home late. It traumatized me. Both the things. After getting all the traumatism, I couldn’t sleep. Moreover I did not really finished studying. I tried to sleep. I couldn’t. I woke up, switch on the computer, and online. I wanted to listen to some really nice songs, which will soothe me. You and Me – Lifehouse Kiss Me – Sixpence None the Richer Tong Hua – Guang Liang (童话 – 光良) Emotion – Destiny Childs Take a Bow – Madonna Walk Me Home – Mandy Moore Luxurious – Gwen Stefani Chocolate – Kylie Minogue Stickwityou – Pussycat Dolls I Do – Rain I watched the MTV of ‘Walk Me Home’, it sucked; and totally killed my impression of Mandy Moore in ‘A Walk to Remember’ movie. After the song treatment, I felt much better. It was then 2.30 am. It is time to sleep. Suddenly my sister came into my room. It was her turn to feel traumatized. We talked for a while, and listening to ‘Luxurious’. After we felt much better, she went back to her room, and I climb onto my sweet loving cuddly bed. Few hours before the first paper I woke up quite late. It was already 10 am. I got ready and proceed to Jennie’s place. We discussed about past year questions and stuffz. When it was half an hour to exam, we got ready to leave to college. I check my examination stuffs, stationeries, ID, exam slip. OMG. I forgot my exam slip! 30 minutes before the first paper Jennie accompanied me to the examination department and got a temp exam slip. Jennie was shocked to see so many people went and ask for temp slip. She really was. And she said, the people issuing the temp slip must be damn angry. Erm, guess so… Few seconds before the first paper I was damn blur because I didn’t bring my exam slip. When I got in the exam hall, I didn’t bring my calculator, I wrote the attendance slip wrongly… I tried to calm myself. During the first paper It went well surprisingly. Although some questions I not sure, it still went well. I was glad. After the first paper It was great after finishing the first paper. I felt like studying for exam already. Went over to Jennie’s for a while, and we ate ICE-CREAM! It was nice! When I got home, I have a plan on my mind. I thought of bathe, then watch the finale of one Hongkie series then blog this post, then pack stuffs for the next paper to study. It was ruined. When I was watching the series half way, suddenly power went off. NO POWER!!! No power at 9 PM!! That’s so early! I sat around, listen to MP3, talked on the phone with Ed-chan, then Joshi-kun, then slept. I was really hoping the power would come back before I sleep. Sadly, it came back at 4am. 4 freaking am. I was sleeping like baby already. The word 'Fook' I took when its no power, the shadow of the fate-twisting bamboo.

Am I just lucky or what?

who? 3 freakin jobless Malay wandering around the street underneath Bandaraya star LRT station who wanted to steal coins from the soft drink vending machine where? on the walkway from Bandaraya star LRT station to Bank Negara KTM station how? I was walking past the vending machine, kinda saw them and they called me, I ignored them and walked on. They then came up to me from behind and tell me to give them RM 10, kinda politely and said he don't want to do this with knife. I didn't have. I just offered them my RM 4. Obviously they are disappointed, then they asked what handset I'm using. I don't want to risk my handset, so I just sneaked off to the side. The guy approached me got held on to my bag, but then I forced the bag to stay with me and ran off. That guy used his fist and punched my ear, he didn't aim well enough to hit my face. Then I just ran off. There was a lot of people there, but no one seemed to care. Or they are just too afraid to care. Malaysians. Scared to get involved. Well, I kinda do believe that other people would also assume nothing happened. I saw a lot of these cases happening, but I dare not to do anything, because I was alone... Ah well, I guess I just try not to look at those threatening person next time. Thank god I'm still alive and nothing happened to me.

Useless Me

My college has a blood donation campaign (NBDC), I was dragged by Jennie to become her assistant. PA Assistant, the same post in the last BDC. Aih... So, it was in the week 6 of my current semester. The week before was public holiday, Deeparaya. And I wasn't really working hard previously. I skipped all the lectures on the week. Well, almost all. At least i attended Electronics' lecture, mm only 2 hours I think. ^^;; Well, the campaign was okie, but then was lacking a lot of sleep, because I do stuffs last minute, which is NOT a very good habit and it killed me EVERYTIME, and yet I still don't change. Summore, had some arguement with my dear and made me cried damn lot. Never cried so much. I cried two day in a row, and really really a LOT!! Neways, things' fine now. I hope. And throughout the whole semester, I didn't do my tutorials, didn't revise, didn't do whatever is need to do by a student. I used to be a lot luckier, because all the test I won't afraid although I didn't really study. This time, test came. I just done two test. And I did badly. BADLY. I was... blank... BLANK! I was dissappointed at myself. Disappointed. Why? Why can't I do well? Why things turned out this way? I guess too much Internet-ing and lack of SELF-CONTROL!!! Useless me... I hate it when I can't control myself! But then it still happens. Ahh.. just wanna release my stress. Have a big FLU today and had some health prob previously... hope things turn out better soon. And, I guess I'm getting on track with my streamyx down. Started doing tutorials liao. Hehe~ ^^ Yet, I still feel myself getting more and more stupid. Noticing all my coursemates are advancing and I'm lagging all the way behind, I felt damn useless. Useless me. Ahh well, one stupid post. Anything you wanna scold please write in comment. Thanks. All scoldings are accepted with open heart.

Headache

Suddenly I felt headache today. It comes so slowly that I didn't even notice it coming. It has been quite some day. A lot of thinking went through my mind. I started acting weird, in front of everybody especially my dear. Dear, I'm sorry. There has been too much things happening recently. Sometimes I just feel like being with you alone all time, without caring any other thing *tune of You and Me by Lifehouse playing*. Thanks for being a great support to me.

Maybe there is too much online session, mosquitoes bites, non-regular sleep pattern, sleeping in class, tutorials, undone and tough assignment because no guidance, suckish lecturer, parental disapproval, financial problems, etc... AH.. damn.. I'm only 19, why do I have to suffer from all this? (This is the famous quote from Jennie)

Sometimes I just feel like the world is goning to end soon. Accidents are getting more and more, stuffs are getting more and more expensive, my wallets feels more and more empty, natural disaster are getting more and mroe frequent (although I don't really read the news), newspaper reading session are getting lesser and lesser, interest are getting blurer and blurer, stuffs are getting messier, things are getting harder...

And something which I thought it is going to happen only in the drama has been told to me that it has happened real life, and to some of my closest friends. Yeah, I know it is naive to think that things that are happening in drama aren't going to happen in real life as drama is the reflection of the real life.

House burgary, teenage pregnancy, severe family problems backed with a gambler as a father of the family, relationship problems with a 6 years and a 1 month, juggling between preferences and requests, communication problems, and felt like things are going against my will.

Ahh, they say humans have "Sam sui look wong" (3 years of bad luck and 6 years of prosperity). I kinda have a feeling this year is one of my 'sam sui'. But not really 'sui' la... Someone found me, and we are together for half a year already, and I'm glad it happened.

Ah well, I guess things are gonna get better. Before I wrote this, I had a headache, face muscle cramp and feel damn tensed. I guessed thats because I have been wanting to write a post but I didn't really write one.

Ahh.. better get back to work.. Let me see, what I need to do... NBCD, Poster, Flash, Presentation, Tutorials...

P/S: Dear, I really want to cuddle with you badly...